Since moving to Germany, I have eaten many meals that were high in carbs and / or fat.
The high in fat meals are especially hard because often I order what I expect to be the healthiest choice at a restaurant and it turns out to be covered in fattening gravy or cream. Very frustrating.
Additionally, I am craving carbs like crazy, in large part because it is cold, gloomy, and night falls very early. And the carb thing is complicated, because the best whole grains I've found here are über delicious breads and I'm not finding whole grain tortillas or other smaller carb options. Self-control is weak here, especially if I add fat (herbed butter is my crack). I would benefit from choosing to eat my carb option plain, or with a non-fat condiment.
Müesli cereals are also a source of struggle for me, because they are easy, delicious when splenda and fruit is added, easy, easy, easy, easy, and easy. I need a better (lower calorie) easy option. Yes, the müelsi is whole-grain, but it also packs a whopping 300+ calorie punch. Dense nutrition, but also dense calories. And I have a hard time only eating 1/4 cup. So, portion size is also a struggle atm.
Also, I have not been careful to eat large amounts of vegetables, nor do I advocate well for myself at meals Alex cooks. In short, I have been unwilling to prepare, ask for, and eat the vegetables I need to feel full enough to not crave carbs. This is something I can fix.
The good news is, I'm only 5 lbs overweight, I'm not binging, I'm not eating recreational sugar, I'm not purging, I am exercising, I am cooking most meals at home. The bad news is, the fixes are not easy. I have to be consistent with myself in choosing reasonable portions of the healthiest choice food.
I really like my body when I am at goal weight. I feel better, I look better, and my clothes work better. I can be wise and consistent in restoring myself to optimal health.
This could have been a great pic, but I hate my belly in it. It's only a little pooch, but quite simply I'm happier with how I look without it, and I AM able to achieve and healthily maintain 120 lbs. No shame, just acknowledgement of what is true for me.
