Baileyrose85's Journal, 30 March 2012

I uploaded a new picture today. Wanted something a little more current and my hair hadn't been that dark in about 9 months. This was me and one of my favorite co-workers/friends. This was from last weekend's bachelorette party and was her first night out after having 2 of her step kids pass away as a result of an apartment fire. She, of course is the skinnier, not quite so blonde one.

Anyways, so far, today has sucked ass. My fiance had problems sleeping last night so when my alarm started going off this morning he got angry with me. I have been trying to get better about my snoozing but you don't break 20 years of habit in a week! As a result, I left for work pretty bummed out.

I got to work, which is not my favorite place to be lately and although I was not overly stressed (I had calmed down about the grumbly fiance and am not activly stressed at work), boom. Here comes an anxiety attack. Now, I haven't had problems with anxiety since I was about 13. About a year ago, I started having these painful muscles tension issues in my chest. I chocked it up to a reaction to something I was ingesting. At the time, I was consuming multiple energy drinks a day, various vitamins, etc so since I could never pinpoint what it was and it didn't bother me all that often I never pursued it with my doctor.

It wasn't until a few months later that I had casually mentioned it to some people at different times and each of them came back with the same verdict: Anxiety. Now because I am not usually actively upset when it happens and it almost never happens, I had a hard time accepting that answer and I don't worry about it. Today was an odd case though. I just kept breathing and the pain was gone within a minute or two, which was great but then I was nauseated and had an awful headache. The tummy issues went away about 1pm after I had some lunch. The headache is still here.

Now that grumpy has gotten some sleep, he is all chipper and will probably want to do something tonight. I, on the other hand, don't want to do anything but go home and take a nap. I plan on getting up early and hitting the gym tomorrow since I have been so bad about it this week, he isn't going to like it but oh well. Sometimes he is so great about supporting me with this and others he is downright distainful towards it.

I am really hoping that either he will start exercising with me or get over his jealousy so I can do my thing.... guess only time will tell.

Diet Calendar Entry for 30 March 2012:
150 kcal Fat: 4.00g | Prot: 20.50g | Carb: 8.00g.   Breakfast: Muscle Milk Light Powder, oscar meyer deli fresh mesquite turkey. more...


That's a great pic! If your anxiety issues don't get better I'd go see the doc and they may be able to give you something to help. As far as the fiance, maybe once he's been around a little while longer he'll just get used to your routine. My hubby used to get upset if I worked out after work, so I started just doing it in the a.m. and that made us both happy. Maybe there is a solution that you can both agree on somewhere. Have a great weekend!! 
30 Mar 12 by member: mars2kids
Love the new pic! I'm having some guy issues also right now......grrrrrr! Hope things get better 
30 Mar 12 by member: Haley13P
very cute picture! love the blonde on you! :) also, let fiance get used to your routine - it'll take some time. he knows what you're doing and why you're doing it - he won't be annoyed long. he'll get used to it ;) my husband is the same way when he's home once a month - he just wants to rest, relax, and sleep - but I get up and go on with my business - which drives him crazy sometimes. lol 
30 Mar 12 by member: eyeheartyou18
U look beautiful ! 
31 Mar 12 by member: Naiomy
Ugh my hubby gets all wierd about me going to the gym 5 days a week also he feels lonely and like i am putting the gym ahead of him and the wifey duties... MEN WHATEVER! I got an elliptical at my house now and he asks "why dont you go to the gym anymore?" Really? I dont go 5 days a week cause he was crying about it and now he asks why, after i spend 600.00 on a elliptical. GEEZ can never win lol  
02 Apr 12 by member: cosabellaitaly
Love the picture, you look amamzing! Just a thought drinks are HIGHLY bad for your heart when consumed too much, too frequently. ALthough I dont doubt you have anxiety, you may want to try skipping the energy drinks and see how you feel. As for the grumpy fiance', just tell him that your doing this for you and he'll get to reap the benfits as well! *wink* 
03 Apr 12 by member: lisabear79


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