keats06's Journal, 21 September 2017

Ok not doing well been sat in bed for last 2 days crying or sleeping or both. eating crap not caring in all honesty not much I do care about lately. I know exactly what it is but really don't want to go there again. You see few years ago was diagnosed with depression was taking anti depressants helped but then stoped due to the stigma of it all pretended I was taking them finally got doctor to stop prescribing them and now look 6 months later back to where I was years ago in bed crying hating myself eating wanting everything and everyone to go away. pretending I'm fine fake smile plastered on face need help is hard to admit please don't feel sorry for me or take offence it's not what this is about it's knowing that maybe there's a mental part of this journey that some of us need to address before the weight loss starts. Thanks for listening xx

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I hope you feel better soon x 
22 Sep 17 by member: Yasmine15585
Take care of yourself, Keats, and don't think about the stigma. You've had a hard time of it recently so it's not really surprising you're struggling. We're here to listen though if you need us. 
22 Sep 17 by member: Phooka
I hope you feel better really soon. take care and don't be to hard on yourself. sending hugs your way x  
22 Sep 17 by member: bubblegum14
I echo what Phooka and bubblegum14 have said, the stigma of depression has definitely reduced a great deal in the last few years, it's rightly now regarded like any other illness just that an ILLNESS. I think if you asked all your friends to be really honest and tell you if they have had depression or experienced any form of depression I think you would be shocked by the response. It's really common and that's the scariest thing. I just wish more people were as brave and open as you , for that l applaud you. Please don't stop posting how your getting on and most importantly how you are feeling. Take care of yourself 
22 Sep 17 by member: thomas rutherford
Life can be so hard and stressful. We take it all on board often without noticing how much and for how long. Many of us here have/are and will have to deal with depression at some point, me included. It's good to get things said/written down and those of us who can understand will be there when you want to share because that's what we do 👍 
22 Sep 17 by member: Tracey2211
I have been on anti depressants for years. I put it down to low serotonin levels which is just in my make up. If the anti depressants work for you then perhaps your serotonin levels are naturally too low. The way I see it is I would take medication for blood pressure if I had an issue with that. I genuinely see my depression as a chronic condition I can treat. I never think about the stigma nowadays. Please please take your medication if you need it. Life will be good again 
22 Sep 17 by member: loseweight46
So sorry. Taking medication is nothing to be ashamed of. You've done well with it in the past, why not give yourself another chance and go back on them if you still need to. It's never easy when you've got invisible(not obvious) medical conditions and it can be hard when others put unnecessary expectations on you. Give yourself a pat on the back for having come this far. All the best. 
22 Sep 17 by member: mulengal
unable to get Drs appointment till 13th October might see if I can get in sooner thanks for all your support. 
23 Sep 17 by member: keats06
I would love to bring a smile on your face but don't know how. Keep strong and I hope you will get well soon. 
24 Sep 17 by member: Mal321
Drs appointment made earliest is 19th Oct let's see if I can cope that long. 
25 Sep 17 by member: keats06
Does your doctor reserve a small number of appointments each day that you can ring up for at around 8:30? My practice does and a triage doctor calls back to allocate one after a few questions. If they do, try that. I know it's stressful to do but if it gets you there sooner, it's worth trying. Try to jot down a few notes of how you're feeling to help you explain over the phone. I wish I could help more as I know those tasks may be more than you feel able to do. Keep posting, Keats 🤗 
26 Sep 17 by member: Phooka
How are you doing after your op? Don't forget that anaesthetic takes about 3 months to fully get out of your system and affects emotions and sleep. If one person starts crying on a surgical ward then they expect everyone whose had an op to join in - and they usually do. 
26 Sep 17 by member: minitata
@minitata op was ok in end very sore and sick after but was able to do most things after 3 days but since then haven't stopped eating and piled all weight back on i know how to lose it but not sure I'm strong enough to do it atm. emotionally I can go from laughing with family to crying cos they laughing at me in an instant. hubby says I'm moody snappy etc although I don't see it myself. time will tell thank you for continued support  
26 Sep 17 by member: keats06
Right now losing weight can go on the back burner - eat to heal from your op and try take some exercise to keep moving. Take care 👍🏻 
26 Sep 17 by member: Phooka
If you need to see a doctor and your surgery is full , call 111 and they can advise where else you can be seen if that may help? Reaching out fir help is a big step towards your recovery.. We all have our own issues and stresses, but you can vent here any time you want.. Take time, heal your body and everything will fall into place Good luck and big hugs 🤗 
27 Sep 17 by member: poppycom

     
 

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