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I find it helps me to post when food seems to be an ever menacing factor. I have been playing nice grandma today and made homemade chocolate chunk cookies for my grandsons. The cookies are in my kitchen calling my name dammit, I think I will change my name to Twiggy, then I will have to live up to my name. Evenings are tough, I have several hobbies but until I get my eye surgery I cant do them. I gave up doing needle point last year because of my visual problems. I am sooo looking forward to doing that again. And of course I love to read. check that off the list. Soon, oh so soon. So, I sit and type and think of the nasty things I would say to those cookies. I finally decided that I can't eat them not because they are evil or bad for me (that has NEVER worked) but that if I wanted one I could have one but I just don't want one. I have never done well when being denied anyway. This way I am giving myself a choice. I can choose or not to choose, oh how existential!! Hope you all are getting through the holiday made for a diabetic nightmare, lol. I just about go into a diabetic coma smelling all the goodies around me. My favorite, is when people come in with something yummy and apoligize to me!! Oh I am sorry, I forgot you can't eat this. I always say but yes I can, I choose not to so because it would kill me. They invariable laught thinking I am kidding....I am not. I have seen what has happened to my body over the years by not taking my diabetes seriously. I am fortunate though my heart is great, My blood pressure is good,my kidneys are doing well but my feet and eyss have been my problems. After all these years it could have been worse..can you tell that those cookies are still bothering me.. Just a sec...I went and put them in my freezer. that shut them up...
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