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so tomorrow is my 48th birthday and i'm really not feeling it. I've kind of been discouraged lately. this process has taken allot out of me and i've kind of let myself down lately. Looking at the bright side, i guess i can say that i'm not where i was last year this time. So, that's something. but i have been slacking with recording my food, watching my food and my exercise routine. this is a disaster so, yet again, i'm starting over. but not in the same place i was last year...got to remember that. I also know allot more than i did last year. and maybe...just maybe the surgery date is moving up. My therapist got a call last week asking her for a release and she's signing it even though i haven't quite met her weight requirements she set for me. this did give me some hope that i wouldn't go through another six months of this limbo. the balance of not eating more than what i'll be able to hold after surgery and eating enough so i'm not miserable cause i'm hungry and sick of what i'm eating, at the same time. Cause that's in there too. the constant job of finding different protein sources so i'm not bored. I get bored with food easily. Lots of ways to prepare chicken, but it still tastes like chicken. What's a foodie to do?
I'm trying a Quest protein bar this morning for one of my breakfasts (before workout). It's awful, but definitely different. Ha, maybe i'm ready for that two week interval of liquids only. Just as long as i get the protein in. (heavy sigh) get through this day, Paula. You can. You are enough. Well, that didn't sound as hoaky as i thought it would in my head. I am enough.
Peace, all.
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377.8 lb
Lost so far: 19.6 lb.
Still to go: 27.8 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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losing 1.4 lb a week
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