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Today I begin again. I've struggled for years with my weight. I've wasted YEARS of my life not doing anything about it. I've shed so many tears about how bad I feel about myself, how disgusted I am with myself, how ashamed of myself I am. I don't want to feel that way anymore.
I'm scared right now... Scared that I will, once again, give up. I'm a giver-upper by nature. Not a good character trait, I know, but there it is - I'm just being honest. I can't lie to myself anymore about how I'll start eating healthy next month, or that once my little one starts kindergarten I'll have plenty of time to exercise so I'll start then... No more putting it off, no more excuses. I have to start now. Right now.
I'm getting older; 45 this summer! The older I get, the harder losing weight and getting in shape is going to be so I better start NOW.
But I'm scared.
Diet Calendar Entry for 19 April 2017:
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3352 kcal
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Fat: 110.56g | Prot: 96.24g | Carb: 358.17g.
Breakfast: Nabisco Chicken in a Biskit - Original, Premier Nutrition High Protein Shake - Vanilla. Lunch: Hershey's Milk Chocolate Bar. Dinner: Smirnoff Vodka, Orange Juice, Sangria, Boston Market Macaroni & Cheese. more...
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I know how it feels to be scared of giving up. It's kinda a 360 battle that never ends! You gotta keep trying! Your in the same boat with many of us here at FS. You can do it! Your fear is only adrenaline waiting to be used! That's how I look at it :)
19 Apr 17 by member: Atsie99
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You can do it! 😉 good luck
19 Apr 17 by member: DomiKNITrix
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I am beginning again this week also. I completely understand being scared of giving up or gaining it all back...I'm 48 and my fear also is that it is going to be so much harder this time, but I am beginning again and I must start now. So way to go new beginner!!! You can do this!!!
19 Apr 17 by member: Black Girl
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Hello Penguinesque. Let me say that you are off to a great start, because the first step to change is admitting that you need to. Second is to find and utilize resources to promote change, such as Fat Secret. I find that I am most successful when I plan my meals in advance while tracking my nutrients as well as calories with the use of Fat Secret. I haven't mastered my diet yet, but I keep telling myself that a healthier me is a work in progress...and we are worth the effort! As being one who has also struggled with my weight my whole life, I've learned that the journey can be just as rewarding as the results. So if you ever find yourself discouraged and need support from the community, you have one here. Welcome.
19 Apr 17 by member: s linerud
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Started yesterday for the numerous times. It is a challenge. Will send you positive thoughts of encouragement.
19 Apr 17 by member: Ivylanired
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I can't even begin to express how much I can relate to this post and I'm a total giver upper too! Fat Secret has helped me to hold myself accountable for every bit of food that goes into my mouth. Admitting your faults and making an effort everyday to do the right thing will only lead to positive results...no matter how big or small. You got this!!
19 Apr 17 by member: Bateski3
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my story sounds like yours, but I'm only twenty eight. went on my first diet in 3rd grade, and have failed every single one. now I'm 28 and work a physical job and I'm bigger than I've ever been. so here I am trying a new diet, to change my eating habits, to feed my body better. and it is not easy in this McDonald's world. I have faith, you should too. From now on we're only putting 93 in these vehicles we walk around in all day. I'm ready to feel good.
19 Apr 17 by member: babybelle09
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We're the same age, I'll be 45 in September. This is the first time in my life that I've ever needed to lose weight. Counting calories is new to me. Just starting out too. I don't know what I'm doing myself yet but if you ever need to vent or anything.....
19 Apr 17 by member: Tracey115
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I "started over again" 2 days ago & I cannot tell you how many times I've heard that same voice in my head. That something else is more important or worse yet that I am not important enough to be worthy of change. You're here, you took the step, take the next one. Let's be here for our kids. Remember how you feel is just as important as the scale.
19 Apr 17 by member: LuluLimes
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I " start over " everyday.... YOU CAN DO THIS....NEVER GIVE UP!
19 Apr 17 by member: iulani
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Hey I just read your post. You got this!!!! I know you can do it I've felt the same about a month and a half ago. So I took to the internet to find out meal plans that I could stick too since I hate cooking but love eating. Along with the problem I hate cooking oh yeah and busy. So I found one that I could do I can stick too and something that would hold me accountable. Because if I fuck up I fuck all the way up. It's hard and every day is a struggle but knowing this I know tomorrow is another day and it's not a race but a marathon. And you know what it's going to be a story I can tell someone one day how I did it. I know you can too I believe in you and you got this
19 Apr 17 by member: justme1182
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@Penguinesque @Bateski3 Perhaps more honest, positive and realistic self-talk will help too. Being a "giver upper" can be turned around!
19 Apr 17 by member: AgileBee
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