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Day one of my diet, I lost 170 lbs. (Darrell and I broke up)
I'm sad, but resigned. When it's good, it's more than I could've ever hoped for all of my life. But when it's bad... I die a little every time. How long should I have to listen to being called a liar, a cheater, after nothing but his money, high and mighty, and unwilling to listen to God? It breaks my heart that whatever happened in his life made him this way. But I can't change him, and I can't take it anymore. I feel like my very life depends on me stepping back, stepping away.
I share this not for a response, in fact, I would prefer none. But my heart is heavy and I would appreciate prayers for strength. I feel like I've never been weaker, and I've just now pulled together an ounce of self defense and preservation.
So today I start taking care of myself and start taking my life back.
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175.0 lb
Lost so far: 25.0 lb.
Still to go: 25.0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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gaining 1.8 lb a week
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