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The best is the enemy of the good ~ Voltaire
Good morning...coffee in hand (is there ever enough coffee at 730am?) and preparing for the day's mental training ground. A new corner of a project that I'm figuring out...that has few absolutes and many different ways it could be done...no view of the end result yet which is hard. There is no "right" way to do this all laid out. That specifically is what I've been needing to work on all year and each time I encounter it, still makes me afraid and want to avoid it. And yet I know that the reason I keep encountering it is that I haven't mastered it yet (can I be done now?) so it comes to me until I have learned the lesson well. God loves me and puts this in my path to grow, to be more the "me" I should be. It's not good to live in fear and, in this way, I do. It's frustrating (because I have expectations) and scary (since I don't know exactly what to do to avoid disagreement/conflict). And yet from an outside perspective (looking at me from a distance) I know I can do it. I'd just rather have someone else do it for me lol.
I have a friend that never seems to be afraid, she just does it. If it's wrong, she reevaluates, corrects and keeps on going. She doesn't feel it, there's no emotion attached to it. In some ways I wish I could be like that, be able to see whatever I do as just a thing, just work, not a reflection of me (because at this point it is). And yet, when I pass a hurdle and don't die, I grow and have an experience to share with someone else who is following a similar path, to encourage or instruct them. I can be what I'd like to have at this point. Doesn't mean I'd not like to shrink/pull back today though LOL.
Have a great day buddies...
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177.9 lb
Lost so far: 54.1 lb.
Still to go: 32.9 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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Diet Calendar Entries for 03 August 2016:
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647 kcal
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Fat: 44.45g | Prot: 44.73g | Carb: 21.11g.
Breakfast: International Delight Sugar Free Caramel Macchiato Coffee Creamer, Whole Foods Market Stevia, Coffee. Lunch: Southern Home Shredded Mild Cheddar Natural Cheese, Egg. Dinner: Yellow Sweet Peppers, Fried Egg, Publix Low Sodium Bacon, Cooked Mushrooms (from Fresh). more...
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losing 9.1 lb a week
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 Comments
03 Aug 16 by member: LadyinDenim
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Courage: it is a great virtue. Sometimes it just means deciding to try. Once you've decided, it's much easier to step forward and deal with whatever comes your way.
03 Aug 16 by member: erikahollister
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Just be like everyone else and only be concerned with yourself. Good people take on too much burden. I do believe what you do for others comes back to you, that much more. Just don't burden yourself needlessly.
03 Aug 16 by member: warrenwinter
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There is a middle ground place....talk with others and get their perspective on the work and the barriers you face. In feedback someone might trip some ideas to aid you with deciding direction. Funny, whenever I have compared myself to others and found their traits more attractive, something happens in their path that their skill set is not prepared to manage. We come as package deals, so they too stumble and have fears about something in their lives...maybe hide them better, maybe have balancing skills to tend to it, but all of us have fears. Sounds like being practical is less attractive to you than the journey of exploring and discovering...process based. So right now you are processing this hiccup...all is right in the world. Trust the experience and your coming out the other side with more knowledge. Doesn't mean their won't be costs, but you can choose wisdom. Thanks for the thoughtful post.
03 Aug 16 by member: JJohnso
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Yay - you have a great drop today!
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