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OK, I suck. In 2013 I thought I was fat at 173 lbs. 3 years later I am more than 20 lbs heavier. Yes, I know my Mom died. Yes, I know I lost my sister and my daughter and grandkids. Yes, I know I have a husband that eats a lot and is fat too and doesn't discourage me from eating. Yes, I know I make horrible food choices. The thing is, how do I stop this gain? Every time I get angry with myself, I just eat more. Last time I had bloodwork done everything was fine. But I am having trouble moving. Getting past my (brand new) belly is quite a feat. When I look in a mirror I nearly don't recognize myself. But HOW do I get and stay motivated to make a huge change? I looked into medical weight loss clinic. I looked into bariatric surgery (and OMG, I qualify! WTF??!!!). But I know that I not only can't really afford it, it's not what I want to do.
Am I depressed? I don't think so. I just seem to be hungry all the time. Even when I'm not hungry, if something looks good, and generally it's really bad for me, I will eat it. I walk through the grocery with great intentions and end up with brownies/cookies/pop tarts in my cart. As a matter of fact, I just remembered I have a pop tart in my desk and I'm trying not to think about it, but I'll probably eat it. WTF???!!!
I know when I got ready to quit smoking about 9 years ago, it was after many, many failed attempts. And then one day I was quite simply fed up with the smell, cost, sickness, etc. etc. etc. and I quit. Thought I was going to die, but I quit. And haven't gone back. Can I do it with food? Can I? Will I?
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198.0 lb
Lost so far: 0 lb.
Still to go: 63.0 lb.
Diet followed poorly.
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gaining 0.2 lb a week
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You may have hit your bottom, which is good. That is where we are humble and are willing to ask for help so we can change. Just start by logging all of your food, even the crap. Log it all. I bet you will use a little restraint with your eating just by doing that. Spend a little time on here reading posts and journals. You will find inspiration and hope. We are here to help when you are ready to change your WOE.
27 Jul 16 by member: LadyinDenim
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Please never give in or give up. I have been there...and many others here have been there, too. I once thought of surgery and decided I could do it - and I am doing it. Think of doing one small thing each day then the changes add up into a lifestyle change - not a "diet". Limit your calories by posting all your food here in the Food Diary, then over time change the quality of what you eat, add drinking plenty of water. You did it before so you can do it now!
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take it day by day or meal by meal. you can focus on you and make yourself a better you! I know how hard it is as I lost my mom, sister, and dad all within a 2 year window. breathe in - breathe out and do not beat yourself up!!!
27 Jul 16 by member: PGM012197
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All excellent advice^^^. I have learned here how important it is to have support. And while we may all have started as strangers, I've gained buddies who are becoming friends.
27 Jul 16 by member: mskestrela
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I always said that weight loss is harder than quitting smoking because once you've made up your mind to stop smoking, you don't have to "smoke a little bit every day to survive" so you can just stop. Food on the other hand is different, you do still need to eat.
I lost 70 pounds and they all ask, "how did you do it" and I always tell people you know
how I did it, we all know how, diet and exercise! But the biggest factor is "Will Power" you have to want it!
27 Jul 16 by member: stone free
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I've very recently been exactly where you are. I'd eat the sugary stuff that I loved and then feel disgusted with myself. That didn't stop me doing it again. Like you, I have trouble getting around because hefting my over 200 lbs. on a relatively small frame and average sized feet is, of course, hard. I tried hard not to look in the mirror but when I did, didn't how I let this happen. Since early July I've started to lose and already feel better both health wise and about myself in general. I agree with everything people above have said. Log everything you eat and be honest about it, it helps. Also, there are great people on FS who are always willing to offer advice and support. Take advantage of that. People will help you through the tough stuff and cheer you on in your successes.
27 Jul 16 by member: PhillySue
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The struggle is real and I completely understand. Try not to focus on the weight you gained. Focus on today and move forward. Don't look back. Take baby steps. You will get there. You know that pop tart in your desk? Give it away or throw it away. Right now. Or you will think about it all day. I know. I've been there many times. Just remember, out of sight out of mind. Or split it with someone if you can't bring yourself to throw it away. Eating half is a accomplishment. Hang in there!
27 Jul 16 by member: zavala68
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I have found that some foods promote hunger and some smother it. If you want to hear more about this you can contact me in a private message. I'm happy to share.
27 Jul 16 by member: erikahollister
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