I’m Back
I totally screwed up since my last login. I did so bad since Halloween that I didn’t even want to login. Yes I am at 200lbs even, and I OWE it all to eating candy, drinking, pizza and other calories my body does not use up.
I can tell you this. I saw some pictures of myself on facebook, and whoa big mama. I am done. Seriously. I don’t like being this size. I am too short for this weight.
Tell me how, how do I balance this life with two boys 6 and a 11 ½ months old, a fiancé that can eat whatever they want. It’s not fair. This morning we did our usual routine and got coffee, donuts, taquitos or a hotdog for the ride into work. I said I was gonna stop doing that. So I got a plain coffee (he normally puts cappuccino in our coffee) milk sugar and a banana for the ride in. I gave him and the 6 year old what they want, baby boy had his milk. I felt good buying my banana but I hated eating it while I could smell all the other food in the car. So that was meal 1 snack coffee and banana.
Two hours later I eat breakfast. Salmon cake, bold egg half of it did don’t ask, and oatmeal with brown sugar raisins and granola. Pretty good to me I think now let’s add up the calories and see how bad I have done so far.
O yeah, I did get up and do some leg lifts, and pushups, so I am trying. Body pleas work with me. Very sad today, don’t like me right now.