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I am slowly getting back to my weight of ... holy cow, 639 days ago, according to the banner at the top of the page. (I hate to report it when I gain weight. Sorry!!) :)
I've learned a few things along the way, though, and the time has not been lost.
One, while getting carbs in order is job one when you have a body like mine, and calories/exercise/etc. are less important until you get that part right, once you've been living this WOE for awhile, you make the discovery that ... hah! calories and exercise actually *do* matter!!
So I'm learning that, if I want to lose weight, I have to keep my calories below 2000 a day (1600-1700 seems to be the sweet spot, but there's some wiggle room there). And everything "works" better if I get in a daily mile walk. Not too taxing, but sometimes even that seems like more than I feel I have time to do. (So lazy! Oh, well. A lifetime of being overweight has its consequences!) :)
That's plenty of food, by the way, when I'm being honest with myself. But my head always wants "more." I try to remind myself that it was the carbs, and the crazy way my body stores fat without giving me adequate access to food energy, that I interpret as "hunger" and "cravings," and once I realize that I know that I've actually had plenty to eat and I'm not really hungry at all. And I've learned so much over the last 4 (!) years of low carbing about how to make a delicious, enticing meal that actually looks "normal" (biscuits, mashed cauli, shredded noodles etc., all replacing the grainy counterparts), along with excellent substitutes for cake, strawberry shortcake, cookies, etc, that I really don't *need* to go back to how I ate before. (Thank goodness!!!)
But if you eat too much ... of anything ... it kicks off the fat storage process.
Of course.
And I don't get to eat as many carbs as other people, either, which is kind of a disappointment, psychologically-speaking. I tried the new "Atkins 40" they're promoting on their website, and ... I gained weight. Wildly, like 10 pounds!!!
So I'm learning that I just can't have very many carbs, either. 25-30 seems to be my max.
I don't know why this bothers me so much. I know what to do, and I know that it works, and I've lost most of the weight that has gotten me off track, and I can actually see my goal from here, which is amazing. But to me, dieting has always been about deprivation for a short time, leading to unconstrained eating (and weight gain) as soon as possible.
I'm really not trying to "diet" anymore. I'm trying to figure out something that doesn't come naturally to me, and I can't do that without a little time, and patience, and pain and sacrifice.
First-world pain and sacrifice, that is. I'm trying to ... eat less than I want, and it's only hard, because I have so much more available to me than I need. And I'm kind of a baby about the whole thing, as you can see.
But I'm getting there. And, for this little girl who started riding the diet roller coaster at the tender age of 5, that's a miracle.
Diet Calendar Entry for 05 July 2016:
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1780 kcal
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Fat: 136.10g | Prot: 107.90g | Carb: 21.51g.
Breakfast: Hellmann's Real Mayonnaise, Egg, Butter, Skinless Chicken Breast, Vanilla Bean Coconut Flour Cupcakes, Heavy Cream, Coffee (Brewed From Grounds). Lunch: Blue Diamond Almond Breeze Original Unsweetened Almond Milk, Cheddar Cheese, Kroger Deli Thin Sliced Oven Roasted Chicken Breast, Hellmann's Real Mayonnaise. Dinner: Peanutbutter Mug Cake, Cracker Barrel Jalapeño Cheddar Cheese Sticks, Perdue Grilled Chicken Breast Strips, Great Value Sharp Cheddar Cheese, Gwaltney Premium Hardwood Smoked Sliced Bacon, Egg, Cache Valley Swiss Cheese, Blue Diamond Almond Breeze Original Unsweetened Almond Milk, Coffee (Brewed From Grounds), Half and Half Cream, Butter, Hellmann's Real Mayonnaise. Snacks/Other: Fresh'n Easy Garden Salad. more...
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