Christinemeowk's Journal, 21 June 2016

So much has happened during my brief but not first weightloss journey this time around, and while I'm pleased as punch about the physical things... most of the changes have been mental. Those are the ones I'm most proud of.

This for me is no longer about weightloss. I'm on a mission to be fit, and healthy and strong.

Atkins was great for me as a sort of training wheels to become familiar with portion sizes and control, and being okay with eating, but for a long-term eating plan it just didn't fit, so I cut it loose.

I'm not on a "diet" I'm fully submerging myself into a total lifestyle change. In order for that to last a lifetime I can't omit any food groups or demonize anything I choose to eat. That mess is no good for my soul.

I certainly didn't stress about such things as a child. I just ate and ran around playing..never once had any weight problems, and damn it I was happy. I want that feeling back forever so I have no intentions of ever stopping my gym activities. As long as I sweat on the daily I'm gonna be just fine.

While thinking about all this the most wonderful thing occurred to me. At some point down the road I'm going to have to eat way more food than I eat now to maintain the healthy strong body I'm working towards! Can you imagine what that's gonna feel like? I almost can't wait until I'm eating to maintain and fighting to keep the scale from dropping... but wait I must. I'll most certainly be loving and appreciating every step along the way.

What an adventure! 💗