I fell off the wagon big time today. I knew it was going to happen. I've been growing more and more resentful over this whole ordeal the last few weeks. I am a chronic dieter. it has been pushed on me since I was little (my grandmother was a weight watchers leader for 40 years and we called her the food police). But 6 months ago I had had it and just couldn't diet any more. I was so tired of worrying about every single thing that I put in my mouth, even water messed with me. Well, My weight has been stalled for 2 weeks now, and it was hard to get started in the first place. I thought I would feel guilty today, but all I feel is relief! It's like a weight has been lifted and I can breathe again. I can't explain what a weird turn of events this has created in me, but I feel so amazing right now lol. Now. if I could just find a way to feel this good when I get back on track, then we will have reached success.
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