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I now have new clothes to wear to the office, and I finally broke out the hair dye I bought last Spring, and did my hair. I'm naturally a dishwater blond. Now it's a bright Auburn. Everyone likes it. I do too, but am still getting over the shock of seeing myself with such a drastically different color of hair. It's only 9:00 and I'm already tired of hearing about it. LOL!
I didn't do it for the attention. I did it for me, and I guess I've discovered I just really don't care if anyone else likes it; I do. I need to go back and touch it up, as there are some spots at the roots I missed covering. So I'll have my daughter help me with it this weekend.
I guess I'm giving myself a makeover. It just seems time for a change. I'm already trying to work on feeling good about myself, and self care. It just seems logical to be able to wear comfortable clothes, and to wear my hair the way I want to, instead of the way I've always been told I should wear it.
The scale is not moving, which is a touch frustrating, but I'll keep at it. I've had a couple of set backs here and there, but I'm determined, and I have to remind myself I'm not doing this for a number. I'm doing it so I can climb mountains, literally.
My husband agreed to go to marriage counseling with me this weekend, which I thought might be an impossible thing to ask. We're not in dire straits or anything. We're a pretty low conflict couple, but there are just a few things I think we need some help on, not the least of which is dealing with blended family dynamics, and raising a child with a disability.
I've just gotten to a point where I feel like we're really great friends, and awesome room-mates, but in the midst of the daily grind there doesn't seem to be time or energy for much else. I guess I'm at a stage in my life where I hoped we'd have a little bit more than just being friends who work fairly well together on managing a household. And I didn't think we'd be at this point just four years into the marriage either. I can't build the intimacy I want by myself. I know this, I realize, because I've been trying to do just that for about a year, quite unsuccessfully. I'm resentful about it, and it's really through no fault of his. We just need to both get the lines of communication going both ways, I think. Hopefully a counselor can help facilitate that. I guess time will tell.
Diet Calendar Entries for 22 February 2016:
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1857 kcal
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Fat: 85.83g | Prot: 81.63g | Carb: 193.11g.
Breakfast: Nature Valley Protein Chewy Bars - Peanut Butter Dark Chocolate, Frigo Natural String Cheese Part Skim, Coffee with Cream and Sugar, Equate Women's One Daily, Nature Made Super B-Complex. Lunch: Frigo Natural String Cheese Part Skim, Healthy Choice Cafe Steamers Asian Inspired Sweet Sesame Chicken. Dinner: Syrup, Johnsonville Original Recipe Breakfast Sausage, Plain French Toast. Snacks/Other: Taco Bell Mild Taco Sauce, Crystal Farms Shredded Cheddar Cheese, Rosarita Refried Beans, TGI Friday's Cheddar & Bacon Potato Skins Snack Chips. more...
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2975 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Walking (moderate) - 3/mph - 30 minutes, Standing - 30 minutes, Watching TV/Computer - 2 hours, Desk Work - 9 hours, Driving - 30 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 3 hours, Walking (exercise) - 3.5/mph - 30 minutes. more...
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