Transformation Butterfly's Journal, 31 January 2016

Sorry took the exit ramp from the Fat Secret website for the last two weeks. I am sorry dealing with work issues with my replacement in my old job. Not cutting the mustard and no one wanted to point out the elephant in the room until I said something. In addition she's young and everyone was making excuses for he lack of responsibility and how her failure to hold up her end of the work was effecting other departments work. I had to remind her and everyone talking behind her back that we work as a team and we fail as a team. I had been taking time out of my day to go and help her get caught up as I can do the work in my sleep. Little did I know that in my efforts to show her where she needed to make changes to become more effective in the day to day work. She had written an email to HR stating that I had been sabotaging her work,threatening bodily harm and boasting to other employees that I was going to get the job done once and for all. What she did not know was that for months I was her biggest supporter to give her time to get use to the work, as I did the job without any assistance and currently three employees are now having to assist her in doing my old job. I was pulled into an investigation after working 13 years with the same company and numerous employees questioned. I told the new HR person on the job for three weeks that these allegations are unfounded and that I no longer want to work with her at all. I understand that she is twenty-three with two kids and needs a job, but I refuse to work with anyone who would sink so low as to make such statements. Ironic that she was over heard by a senior staff member taking to a friend on her cellphone, stating that she was going to physically hurt and kill someone. In addition she mentioned in her statement to the HR department that the receptionist was in the area an would collaborate her story. During the investigation HR questioned the receptionist and she told them that none of the allegations happened. Upon finding out that the receptionist was not supporting her story went up to her and said,"We are Cubans and we are suppose to support each other no matter what". The receptionist informed her that "I am not going to lie for you and destroy someones career because you are not doing your job."

I have to tell you that this situation rocked me to my core. I spent a lot of time in prayer over the last two weeks trying to understand what would motivate someone to do something like this and then try to play the race card on top of this. My being a single mother and and African American who has been braking racial barriers and stereo types within this company for 13 years. It's 2016 and here a new generation is coming into the world with the same hateful comments of those from the 1950's.

I told the HR person that "I have never dug a hole for anyone,but if you dig a hole for someone you should dig two because you will fall into the hole yourself." (This was taken from an old Chinese mantra)

I am sorry for bringing you down in my journal entry today, but dealing with weight loss is a challenge and on top of this dealing with hated because of my skin color is even harder. I thank GOD that I was brought up in a family who taught me that we are all GOD's children and we are human beings first and foremost and color should never be a factor when dealing with each other.

Here at FAT Secret we all support and challenge each other and never has race been a factor in helping someone reach their weight loss goals. I admit during this time my workouts have not been very productive and I did not check in with my buddies until today, because I took this situation to heart. I remember how much good comes from everyone here and this is where I should be moving forward in this year. Thanks for listening Fat Secret family, I just needed to voice this.

May God Bless and keep you all in his loving embrace.

PS: I will be merging back onto the on ramp and in the flow of traffic with my fellow commuters on the Fat Secret highway soon. Keep smiling and hold your heads up high as we can make 2016 a year of accomplishments. As we move into February sit and reflect back on the month of January. If you need to make changes to become more effective in February, be brave and don't look back in the rear view mirror. Your life is in front of you and not behind you, move forward for the best you possible.

187.0 lb Lost so far: 0 lb.    Still to go: 47.0 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.