HerStrawberri's Journal, 01 August 2011

Start of a new month. I ended July with 10.8 lbs lost. Not bad. I averaged more then 2 lbs a week. I'm happy for that progress. My goal right now is to get below 300. I'm so determined to break that plane. Once it's broke, I'm NEVER going back. It's so embarressing weighing that much. I KNOW I'm tall and I will never be in the low 1 hundo's but my weight right now is UNacceptable. I carry my weight well and that's SUCH a blessing. I guess I'm becoming a bit obsessed with getting below 300 but...honestly....i don't care. I do NOT want to be the biggest girl in nursing school and be thought of as 'unhealthy'. It's going to be hard enough as it is. I know I can do this. The HEALTHY way.

I've fallen back into not eating enough. I need to get my cals back up over 1500. I'm just not hungry and I've become obsessed with my food intake as well. Breaking the habit of thinking the less you eat the more weight you loose is V-E-R-Y hard to do. At least for me. BUT...I'm determined to do this. I need to stay OUT of my head. I'm going to make mini-goals for myself for this month. i think it will help me become a bit more healhty mentally. That seems to be my biggest obstacles. SOooo...here is the list I have so far:

1~Look into the full length mirror and say 5 nice things. EVERYDAY!

2~Eat at least 1500 cals a day.

3~More activity.

4~NO negitive comments

5~Loose 17 lbs!!! (to get below 300 then obviously the next 100)


I've become so much more active this past month. I do stuff but never know how to enter it in the exercise thingy so I don't do it. I don't really know how many cals I'm buring during the day...hopefully a good amount. I know my BMR is around 2600 but other then that I have no idea. I looked into getting one of those body bug things but they are very expensive. i wish there was an easier way to track my cals burned daily.

My P and I went to Kohls yesterday. i didn't look into the stupid pillar mirror at ALL. not sure of it was because she was with me and we were having fun or if I'm just over them now. I didn't do it, though, and that felt good. I actually got some t-shirts and didn't have to worry if they would fit me or not. ( I don't try on clothes at kohls) Granted they were guys and still really big, BUT I KNOW they will fit. yay! small steps!

I hope everyone has a great month of weight loss and new healthy habits!

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1389 kcal

Fat: 75.90g | Prot: 119.81g | Carb: 39.73g.   Breakfast: IMPRL DELIGHT QTRS, Turkey Sausage Patties, Roundy's Large Eggs. Lunch: cottage cheese, Mayonnaise, Heinz Ketchup, sentry 90% lean hammy. Dinner: deli ham, deli turkey meat, iceburg garden lettuce, Light Ranch Dressing, hard boiled large egg. Snacks/Other: Original Whipped Light Cream, Light & Fit Carb and Sugar Control Yogurt - Strawberry. more...

3492 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Resting - 16 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...