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Good Morning, good day, and a good week to all as I record and share current events swirling around in Bellawood. As this is FatSecret I’ll begin with ‘All things Food’.
No perfect days. Most days I struggle to keep the quantity at a level of satisfying hunger and meeting nutritional needs. Most days lately have at least one eating episode completely unrelated to either and more connected to emotions. I’ve retraced my steps a thousand times attempting to find that lost motivation. Correction, the motivation is present … I just can’t relocate and grasp the ‘fervor’ I had in 2012. Maybe today will be the day.
I continue to be busy organizing events at ‘The Healing Center’ in between running my primary business. I cannot remember if I mentioned it or not so forgive the repeat … I sold the warehouse. Bittersweet letting go of a dream shared by Cutty and me but soothed by the fact that the sale price was 50% more than I gave for it 3 years ago. People have told me that is an incredible profit. I’m relieved one less major expense hanging over my head although my goal is to continue ‘paying myself’ that monthly fee rather than letting it just get sucked into ‘the pool’. One month done; so far, so good.
Mushy continues to be my sweet little baby girl and adapt quite well to so many changes swirling around us. Did I mention Harley has five dogs? Four small, one large. Mush, for never really having had an active social life, is fitting right in with them whenever we all visit.
We went away to a lodge this weekend with Harley and one of his dogs. It was nice, very relaxing, and gave us a chance to get away from work intrusions. Without the static noise of life I noted Harley can be a very, very, very (overly) sensitive person. In a way, that’s great that he is attuned to my feelings and emotions. On the other hand, I observed he tends to brood over simple things and found myself hiking on eggshells Sunday.
This was definitely an eye opener for me as it reconfirmed my agenda for a relationship and that was, ‘someone to share time and events’ versus ‘together all the time’. I recognized how frustrated I was Sunday eve at worrying about ‘his’ mood and all I wanted to do was get home to my own quiet sanctuary. I was about to utter the well worn phrases of, “This isn’t working. I’m not ready yet. It’s not you, it’s me.’ And So on. Then I remembered I didn’t have to do that. I just need to be kinder to myself, and retreat for a few days. And most likely, he did as well. I know I can be a lot to take on a continuous basis.
So where does that leave me today? Sipping coffee; have already had two pints of water. Will pray to get one good solid healthy eating, thinking, emotional day under my belt. Then try for another.
Hoping all is well in your world today.
Bells
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