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Where to begin?... It was a great weekend -- such fun with my son, who now lives in SC, home on Fri, dinner that night out with DH's sister also in from out-of-town, niece, BIL, MIL and the 4 of us; Then on Sat, both boys' GFs were over, so there was lots of activity and more fun; DH and I went out for dinner with friends that Sat night while DS's with their GFs; and up extra early on Sun to get DS to the airport for his flight. It was a truly great, fun-filled weekend, but I was tired on Sun and got into too many nuts, fruit, dark chocolate, etc. midday. But, proudly, I recognized that I was tired and not really hungry, put on the brakes, emailed a friend and let myself rest for the "rest" of the day, and get to bed early.
Then yesterday, I had a good call with my health coach, and a bit of an "ah-ha" moment. Sundays have been a struggle for quite some time, and along with traveling home from a trip, where I've felt stuck for awhile. Part of it, I've thought is my long-standing habit to restrict what I eat during the week so I can indulge on the weekends. But, what I realized in our conversation yesterday, as well, is that on Sundays, many times, I'm tired -- physically and emotionally. Most weekends, we go out on at least one night (this past weekend, it was both Fri & Sat), so I'm getting to bed later (hence the physical exhaustion) and the introvert in me needs re-charging as socializing can be emotionally tiring for me as well. While I try to nap on Sundays, most times I can't fall asleep or even if I do, I'm still fatigued after. What I did after my eating this past Sunday was to veg in my comfy chair, watch football and read, which was exactly what I needed. Instead, though, most Sundays or any day when DH is home, I try to plow my way through my fatigue feeling I need to stay busy and productive like my type A, energetic DH. When I feel tired like that during the week, I rest, but when DH is home, I feel guilty as he's always so productive and busy. What I have to realize is that, that is him, and I have other, different needs for sleep, rest, re-juvenating, etc. So, Sundays, beware -- you may just become my day of rest as my bible proclaims it! And, I'll talk to DH about this need that I've been neglecting in hope of getting his acceptance and support.
So, that's my story and I'll stick to it as I try, try again to continue building my healthy eating & living highway. I'm on much later in the day here, but still pause to pray --
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
And, for what remains of this one day and each one meal, moment, bite, thought and emotion, I'll pray, breathe, journal, stay curious & express my way. I'm so grateful for each of wonderful you (I'm off to catch up on your journals next), my family & IRL friends, fun-filled weekends with my boys home, ah-ha moments, progress and having the health & wealth to live this life I love! xoxox
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