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Second weigh-in at work. Not pleased. I seem to have gained 3 lbs. Frustration!
I tweaked my ankle last weekend dancing and so haven't been working out at all, then this week a polynidal (sp?) cyst decided to erupt at the base of my spine. The cyst is a recurring thing for me and it makes me so sick! There is little to be done for it, except to wait for it to resolve itself, or go in to the doc and have it removed. Removal will be weeks off work and I just don't see it as THAT BAD.
However, there are lots of things about obesity that are not pretty, beyond the cosmetic. Cysts are not uncommon. Yeast rash is it's own special torture. Chafing and wheezing. Almost choking oneself when laying down the wrong way. Sex is an exercise in patience and flexability, especially when both parties are overweight....
These are things no one ever talks about. They talk about cholesterol, heart disease, and diabetes. All valid, important issues. Maybe you'll hear someone talk about increased risks for cancer or reporductive issues or hormone imbalances.
But no one has ever said to me, it will be harder for you to orgasm because you're obese. No one ever showed me a photo of a cyst and said "That is what will grow under your skin, if you get much bigger." And certainly no one ever says "I know what it's like, I feel your pain, I know how uncomfortable you are right now."
I'm not asking for pity. I'm just saying to anyone else out there: I understand. I feel your pain. I get it. I miss out on things because of my size and the health problems that make normal activities really uncomfortable. They might not be life-threatening, but I get it. I am right there with you. One of my biggest fears is that I'll lose the weight and none of them will go away. What a punch in the face that would be!
Diet Calendar Entry for 20 April 2011:
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2209 kcal
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Fat: 61.50g | Prot: 142.63g | Carb: 276.09g.
Breakfast: Egg, Bagel Thins - Everything, Philadelphia cream cheese, Light & Fit Yogurt - Blueberry. Lunch: SHAVED MESQUITE TURKEY *, Pasteurized Prepared American Cheese Singles, Mayonnaise. Dinner: Broccoli and Cheese Sauce, Noodle & Sauce - Chicken, Boneless Skinless Chicken Breasts. Snacks/Other: milk, jell-o sugar free chocolate fudge, Butter Snaps Pretzels, 3 Musketeers 100 Calorie Bar. more...
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