BEAUTIFUL Sunday morning here in Bellawood. Classical music in the background combining with the songbirds outside and tinkle of the windchimes. I’m so thankful for this morning and many other things.
Weird culmination of ‘date recognitions’ lately. I was stunned on Thursday eve to discover Blondie didn’t recognize ‘Boss Day’ - no wonder she isn’t loved at work, LOL. When I worked for Corporate America it was a huge ‘thing’ - we started planning a month in advance. It was almost a competition to have the boss who received the greatest ‘recognition’ from their team. It was like the Christmas of CA.
Then it finally occurred to me this morning why ‘Friday, Oct 17’ was tapping at my memory bank: it was the two year anniversary of joining Fat Secret. Oh, yeah, that. And how did I recognize it? By having a binge day of epic proportions. It didn’t START that way but I sure finished it that way; ways I just gave up recording once I exceeded RDI before noon. So that’s two Friday’s in a row off the rails … a day that’s usually TGIF is becoming “Oh No, it’s Friday” or ONIF? So I’m declaring right here, right now, next Friday is going to be better.
Although I know I must own my behavior and reactions I have to think what triggered the Friday binge was Yoga; and thinking about it she was the big factor in the previous binge Friday as well. So like with Blondie there is an underlying current of anxiety that I must adjust and overcome or unlike Blondie just eliminate her from my days. She’s a nice person and I do well when she visits me here but when we make plans outside my home she’s always late, erratic, etc., something that does not sit well with my OCD behaviour and obligations.
Friday afternoon she is ‘done for the day’ while *I* am taking time away from my shop, business, income, etc., to meet her for lunch. Friday was the third time I sat down at the restaurant and ordered without her because I needed to eat and get back on time. Yes, being the boss I can get back when I want but when there’s a sign on the door ‘back at 1pm’ I need to honor that in the event a customer is waiting or returning. So, I suppose the answer is, for now, no more Friday lunches ‘out’. We will need to shift that to a dinner when I’m more flexible and less stressed about my time. There.
I didn’t make it to helping Grace with her Church Rummage sale yesterday; Mushy was freaking me out, not eating, little water, doesn’t seem to be able to jump. I finally got her back on her legs, eating, tail wagging so I’m breathing better but not sure why she’s reluctant to jump (up into a chair). I know Thursday night she seemed to be kicking her hind legs a lot - and hate that she’s absorbed Mommy’s restless leg syndrome (which continues - the RLS OTC isn’t helping .. but at least a hot bath every night is offering a little relief for me.. maybe she needs the same?)
So I just stayed home - didn’t even venture out the front door to retrieve the newspaper. I played with my plants, created a couple of succulent arrangements for indoors, and refinished the sad little auction chairs in a deep mahogany to match the new desk in the shop. My first time to use a paint stripper and a my first ever ‘tool purchase’ - a sander!
And I made a pot of chili thanks to several of my FS buddies sharing they’d done the same last week. But I generally make my ‘broth to meat’ chili ratio something like 20:1; or as told someone once, “I’m mainly in it for the broth”. Hot and filling yet not so calorically dense.
So today I have a pot of beans brewing for Stick; he’s recovering from a heart surgery and .. oh heck, I just like cooking and sharing food; even without the ‘justified reason’. I’m going to make a decorative bird house .. again, just because.. something to do. I’ll probably just spend the rest of the day like yesterday - puttering around, resting in between, and being good to myself.
Hope you’re having a wonderful day in your world.
Bella
