Arrevanthas's Journal, 15 October 2014

I was not able to workout yesterday...and probably not today either. It's driving me crazy and I keep having these mini panic attacks. Clearly, there is something unhealthy going on with me mentally. My anxiety has been up because of it and I feel restless. I have an appointment with my Dr today so hopefully I can hurry up and get back to working out. My eating hasn't been too great either so I need to work on that but that doesn't seem to effect me as much as the not being able to workout.

A great part of it is due to the fact that I have struggled with being the fat girl for so long and I am terrified to gain it all back. It's such a debilitating fear. I keep trying to tell myself that it will be okay, that I can pick back up once my neck is fixed but then I am terrified of the consequences of not working out. I hate this. I know what is right but this irrationality won't go away.

Daily Summary
*Oil Pulling: I tried to meditate while pulling and I failed miserably. Its been hard to focus on other things other than that strong need to go workout. @_@

*P90X3: TBA

*Steps Taken (Goal-10000): TBA

*# Cups of Water (Goal-8 cups): TBA

Challenges
*Record Everything you Eat: TBA

*Stay in Calorie range: TBA

*Park further away: TBA

Diet Calendar Entry for 15 October 2014:
210 kcal Fat: 2.50g | Prot: 6.00g | Carb: 39.00g.   Breakfast: Vigo Jasmine Rice, Kikkoman Less Sodium Soy Sauce, Blue Diamond Almond Breeze Unsweetened Vanilla Milk. more...

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Don't worry yourself too much about resting your body. 80% of all weight loss results happen in the kitchen, not the gym. Give your brain and body the rest and high-quality nutrition they need and it may help to ease your anxiety a little. Hope your doctor visit goes well.  
15 Oct 14 by member: Sweeet2th
Sorry, I'm thinking you have time to see the doctor about a problem with not having exercise time? What? 
15 Oct 14 by member: Rusty Nail
@Rusty Nail-I am seeing a DR about my neck. The whole left side is super sore, tingly yet numb and tight and I can barely move it without extreme pain. There are also two little hard bumps a few inches from my ear that seem to be at the center of all the pain. I am hoping it is just a couple of infected lymph nodes.  
15 Oct 14 by member: Arrevanthas

     
 

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