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I am starting a new journey. I have been 7 days vegan. 1 year ago I was close to my ideal weight. I fell into depression. Into the speedway Taco Bell McDonalds I got a habit syndrome. Not going to grocery store and buying healthy food. Drinking tons of coffee. Taking medication off and on because of pain. I fell out into hysterical crying today, first at home, then after the reading stretching relaxing class of yoga.being reminded by the instructor that I have made a drastic change in my body it is detoxing, emotionally and physically I knew this but in the moment I forgot I hyperventilate very much, I don't even know where I was or what I was doing I almost passed out it was not a good scene. I am so glad that I have an understanding caring teacher. There were two other ladies there, they were very nice. I think God for putting these people in my life.I have been drinking distilled water, started
pain management, signed up for acupuncture, signed up for mental health clinic pain management, signed up for women empowering women also signed up for physical therapy in another county. I have not slept much in the last 2 days, when I did sleep I slept very hard.my pain is excruciating and it is very difficult to sleep and get comfortable once I sleep I sleep very hard but not very long. It is very hard 2 learn to be aware and not be depressed with all of the things going on in my life that I am trying very hard to fix but there is not enough of me to take control of the city cool things that need to be done in my living quarters and property. Not enough money to pay someone to help me. My place needs aprofessional contractors and also physical labor needs. I am so glad I was able to make it to class today. So that I couldn't help myself be more aware of me and my needs try to not by myself, I did not know I was doing that, the teacher said from listening to you you are putting yourself down and ridiculing yourself. I did not even realize I was doing the hard. I cannot control others or what they do around me, it is difficult to deal with the bad things and people around me. I am praying for God to help me realize that no matter what happened I can be happy enjoy it inside because I have God no matter what happens I can be thankful for many things.
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130.0 lb
Lost so far: 10.0 lb.
Still to go: 15.0 lb.
Diet followed N/A.
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gaining 0.2 lb a week
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