ohiogirl63's Journal, 12 September 2014

Back up again. I expected it though. Thank you all for all of your support. It is so nice to see your help. I am going to not worry about this very much for the weekend. It is getting a little cooler here and I was not interested in going out of the house. Lazy I guess. Stiff and sore from the fair. And not interested in much of anything. A let down from the fair, I suppose. Mom went shopping and came in with all kinds of junk food. My brother ate all the donuts she bought at the fair. So that was gone. She came in and said she bought chips and dip for me and a cream horn for me! She also bought cow tales. I don't understand her at all! She knows I want to eat healthy and lose weight. So why??

I'm beginning to think I don't really want this enough. Feel disconnected and out of place. When I first had surgery I was so focused nothing could cause me to turn to one side or the other. Now. I can't stay focused on the goal tho I know I feel better and look better. I was so successful when I first started. I lost 80 pounds in 4 months or so. It was great. I squandered my chance. Now all I see if failure. :(

I ate horribly today. Basically nothing but junk. More junk than at the fair by comparison. How sad am I??

I didn't walk at all today. Or do much of anything. I'll add my armband comments at the end of the day.

Don't now the animal for today. Activity=:52=0 Vigorous :52 Moderate. 1115 Steps. -301 Calorie Deficit. 1731 Calorie Burn No new goal date given.

Tomorrow is Official Weigh In Day. I think it will be a bummer. It's my own fault tho.

Thanks again for all your support. I means so much. Makes me smile. :D

193.8 lb Lost so far: 6.2 lb.    Still to go: 93.8 lb.    Diet followed poorly.