Emotional eating -- has it been there all along?, as my angel pondered too, am I examining these emotions better as I age because I'm getting smarter?, do I just have more emotions to examine and/or more time to do so? I think, for me, like for many things I'm life, its a combination of these all. Going through menopause, becoming an empty nester (even though one has returned to the nest, but more as an adult then a child to be raised), parenting my mom instead of my sons as she progresses with Alzheimer's , etc. has certainly changed the emotions I'm feeling now. As I've said many times, being a mom was the dream career for me, so semi-retiring from that has been hard for me. Just as my therapist had suggested that there may not be an activity that feels as good (short-term) and emotionally releasing for me as eating sugar, there hasn't been an activity or cause or hobby or job that i've felt as passionate about as being a mom. Don't get me wrong, I'm not interested in starting over again in terms of child raising, but I may not find something else that I'm as passionate about and that so encompasses me as to on its own put food in its proper place. Thats the why for me that I need to work & focus on doing so for myself.
I certainly don't mean to be gloom & doom at all, as this is truly an exciting, adventurous time. I'm trying new things, going new places and spending time with new people (like all of awesome you)! And as I've done with my eating, I'm seeing what works for me, what I want to do more of and letting go of the rest. So, it's a really exciting time too with much self-reflection and major life & relationship improvements with my DH and others.
So, I'm off now to some of those things I truly love (like all of you) now -- praying followed by a good workout --
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time; Enjoying one moment at a time; Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it; Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will; That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him Forever in the next. Amen.
And I'll pray, breathe, journal, log, stay curious & express my way through this one day and each one meal, moment, bite, thought & emotion. I'm so grateful for each of brilliant you, my family & IRL friends, more beautiful weather on the east coast, & having the health & wealth to explore and live this life I love! xoxox
Diet Calendar Entries for 20 August 2014:
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1250 kcal
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Fat: 37.51g | Prot: 111.32g | Carb: 138.52g.
Breakfast: Primal Nutrition Primal Fuel - Vanilla Coconut Creme, Lactaid 100% Lactose Free Fat Free Milk, Spectrum Naturals Organic Coconut Oil, Harmless Harvest 100% Raw Coconut Water. Lunch: Lactaid 100% Lactose Free Fat Free Milk, Primal Nutrition Primal Fuel - Chocolate Coconut. Dinner: Simply Enjoy Grilled Mixed Vegetables, Cantaloupe Melons, Lactaid 100% Lactose Free Lowfat Small Curd Cottage Cheese. Snacks/Other: Evolve Greek Kefir, Mann's Sunny Shores Rainbow Salad, Whole Foods Market Avocado Vinaigrette Dressing, Ralphs Whole Raw Almonds. more...
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1994 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Bicycling (very fast) - 17.5/mph - 1 hour, Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 15 hours. more...
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