tenbody's Journal, 29 July 2014

You are fat...ugly and stupid and lazy...What a piece of shit! I can't believe you did this to your body. Don't you love your family!! Your kids want to play with you well did...they are growing up and those days are less and less...but you'd rather sit on your ass and think about food and eat food and watch tv instead of playing in the backyard or ride a bike or play catch or go fishing... 

I'm sorry you're having a bad time. I hear those messages too sometimes and it really sucks. I wish I could say what definitely works, but it changes all the time. Try journaling every day. Writing will help purge all that negative stuff and new positive mindfulness will emerge.  

I agree with Lynch. Food was my "love" and I hated myself. Food was always there and didn't talk back. Not too sound all peace, love and hippie; but you have to work on the issues that make you want to over eat. It doesn't change over night. Every one deserves to be loved and the first person to love you should be YOU! :-) Give your body the respect it deserves for taking all the stuff you've done to it and keeping you going! I don't mean that to sound mean, but our bodies are VERY forgiving. It's never too late to start. I was over 40 when I exercised for the first time since I was about 18. It took a while, but I went from over 200 lbs. to 147 today. I still have a few to go, but I am happy regardless of my weight. YOU are worth it! it gets easier. I promise. 

I'm a little embarrassed as I thought I was typing a journal to myself. LOL oops! That being said thank you for the words. I'm 39 and last week was 303.5 and I literally have NO EXCUSE. If I've caused any health issues to myself it's all my fault. I've always got after my folks for smoking cause it's going to kill them. What a hypocrite I am. This is a first for me so maybe this is something different...I hope!! Thanks again 

yes and you are in the right place to do it. set your goals and stick to them. you will see results and those very loud feelings will lower their volume... 

Can I just tell you that I have had those exact conversations with myself? I finally realized it doesn't motivate me when I do that. It makes me eat more and then I berate myself again and then I would eat more. I still do it, so I don't have that figured out or anything. I just wanted to tell you that you are not the only one who has those feelings about themselves. For me, I try to make those thoughts quiet down, and sort of mentally sidle up to the fact that the next meal, the next day, I can do something different. I'm not stuck with my flab. The time will pass anyway, so if I try to stay calm, focus on the positive and keep moving forward. It will be a lifetime of struggle for me. I hope you can give yourself a break, but at the same try to recognize what the chain reactions are or where the land mines are for you. You can do it!