Raylotekka's Journal, 21 July 2014

I am losing sooo slowly. This past week was a weird one for me. I went off of Atkins a bit, because my best friend and her boyfriend were visiting from KY. I haven't seen her in two years, and she had a stroke last year -- she's a month younger than me, we're 43. Far too young for a stroke, and seeing the impact this has had on her was distressing. We only spent two days together, and then we drove her back to her brother's in NJ.

I had some carbs while she was here -- we went for pizza, after a day in spent Coney Island (I ate no crap in Coney, though). I also had some more carbs later that evening -- a few crappy fries w/cheese & a few mozzerella sticks (local fast food joint -- Roll-N-Roaster), also ordered a roast beef sandwich, but just ate half the meat, no bun. (Half the bun went home w/ me though). There were also a few spring rolls at the Vietnamese restaurant where we dined, her first night here.


I must admit that the night we drove my pal back to her bro's, I was upset and gave in to emotional eating. I allowed myself carbs as a coping mechanism, which was stupid, but probably the first time I've done so since starting this diet four months ago. I had some sesame chicken & steamed pork dumplings, then the leftovers the following day. The day I had the leftovers, I also hit the gym, and did 45 minutes on the treadmill at the beginning of my workout. Did some strength training and then decided I was done when my legs were positively wobbly.

I even walked home from the gym, which is a touch over a half mile. So, I'm trying to balance the good with the bad. Actually, that's a re-write of WHY I went to the gym -- I went for the endorphins rush because I was still depressed about missing my pal.

Even before last week's journey into CARBS, my weight was up. (Did I mention I got my period at the gym? I have such a unusual cycle, so THAT lasted about a day, although the rest of the menstrual symptoms, like migraines, hung around far longer).

I seem to be losing at a rate of 3 pounds per month. This is driving me crazy, but I'm in it for the long haul, as I'm now at the lowest weight I've been in almost 5 years. I'm in a 14 petite!! I just need to get back into my 10's.

I don't want to ever be over 200 pounds again. It was very upsetting when I hit 221 in 2012, and it's so interesting the way my perspective and feelings on my own weight have changed. There was a time when I would have been very comfortable to be between 200-220. My highest weight ever was 297, in 2002 ... and then I had gastric bypass in January 2003, when I weighed 284. That's super morbidly obese -- or as I liked to joke "Super Deathly Fat", and I used to say that since I was super something, I deserved a cape! LOL
For further context, I'm under 5 feet tall.

My stream of consciousness babbling has come to an end.
191.8 lb Lost so far: 11.8 lb.    Still to go: 61.8 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.
losing 0.6 lb a week

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