WickedTruth's Journal, 11 June 2014

I am sorry I haven't been here in a while. I have just been exhausted and too tired to try to even worry about the whole weight loss thing and my stress level has sky rocked this month!

I am not sure I have really shared this with FS friends before so I will let u in on some of my life back ground. My daughter was 17 when she ran away from home,(in July 2013) simply cause she didn't want to follow our rules. Really are rules are simply you don't smoke, do drugs or drink cause you are not old enough and you had to be home at what ever time was predetermined for the occasion Pretty easy if you ask me. I have 4 children, 3 Boys and 1 Girl and she is the only one that had a problem with these rules. we have supplied them with cars and cell phones witch we make sure they understand these are a luxury not a right. But she decided to throw it all away so she could smoke and drink when she wanted. (and maybe drugs too)

Okay so I dealt with this got use to her not being here we even got back on speaking terms again after a while. I started losing weight February 15, 2014 have been doing extremely well I have not let her crap stop me from losing weight witch was a challenge cause I am a mood eater ( I am sure most of us are) but instead of eating I started working out when I got stressed. Witch brings back to being to exhausted to do anything after months of over doing.

At the being of May my daughter decided she wanted to come home witch of course is what we have been wanting. This whole time was for her to want to come home. Her being here is so stressful for me. I always feel like I am walking on egg shells around her and I am unfortunately the go between her and my husband. She thinks everything should pick up where it left off with a car and cell phone us paying for college and those kind of things and my husband says she moved out to be an adult she should pay rent and get treated like and adult. I am so afraid she will take off again (all that goes through my head is she still my daughter and I want to do for her what I get to do for my boys) plus she graduated last week and I was at least able to throw her a graduation party.

Basically when all kind of crazy at my house this past month I have been exhausted and stressed to much to worry about my weight lose so I just have took a step back to breath and get my house in order. However, I did continue to be cautious for what I was eating and on days I was able to mustard a little energy I went and worked out mildly. So I am happy to tell you I have actually maintained my weight loss and not regained any of the weight that I had previously lost. So really only my momentum was the only set back.

So Monday was my jump back in but I am trying to move more cautiously and not over do it but today I do find some muscle sore so I think I still have a ways to go figuring this all out.

I am thankful to still have FS and all my friends here and hope everything has been going well for you all. I am looking forward to catching up with all of you and seeing how well you have been doing. For now have a wonderful night.
260.4 lb Lost so far: 31.6 lb.    Still to go: 110.4 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.

Diet Calendar Entries for 11 June 2014:
762 kcal Fat: 31.00g | Prot: 53.15g | Carb: 74.82g.   Lunch: Nature's Own Light Honey Wheat Bread, Five Guys French's Yellow Mustard, Hormel Spam Classic. Dinner: Skinless Chicken Breast, La Preferida Spanish Rice, Refried Beans, Cooked Broccoli (from Fresh). Snacks/Other: Strawberries. more...
2877 kcal Activities & Exercise: Resting - 16 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
on diet WickedTruth's own diet   losing 0.1 lb a week

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Have you considered therapy for her and the family? Might help everyone. Setting boundaries, respect, etc.  
11 Jun 14 by member: ClassicRocker
CR is so right. An objective, trust-worthy third party might be the best thing for all of you to help sort out feelings and set boundaries for your new normal. Good luck to you. I have kids not far from that age and I cant imagine the pain of your situation.  
11 Jun 14 by member: tiarew
She won't change until she hits rock bottom and has to make the decision to change on her own. Some kids are just like that; have to learn the hard way. I've got a daughter like that. Note: it may take more than one time of "decided that I am on the wrong path and will change forever" episodes. My daughter is on ~ her 10th time. This time is supposed to be the one (she writes to me from prison). Been in therapy for her entire post pubescent life (she's 42 now), not done much so far. 
11 Jun 14 by member: cpmodem
Thanks, I have talked to her about getting help but she will not go see any one and I can't force her too unfortunately. Since she has moved home she still smokes but she is 18 now and the drinking and drugs (if she was doing them) has stopped and she seems happier then I have seen her in a while (remind it has only been a month.) So I am will wait to see and keep praying that god will see us thru. Thanks for the support and understanding.  
11 Jun 14 by member: WickedTruth
I am so very proud of you for maintaining your loss through everything you have been going through. I hope things can get better for you soon.  
11 Jun 14 by member: SherrieC

     
 

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