Ibiza122's Journal, 14 May 2014

so 2 days ago i had a black out (sigh) thats just life for some1 like myself with epilepsy....and every single time this happens it just feels like my hole world is crashing down on me, to think id become used to it by now but nooooooooooooo im ur typical nut job when it comes to this. every single time i kick my depression and this happens i start spiralling back down into a dark hole and i struggle to get back out of it......if theres any1 out there who suffers from what i do or even doesnt and can offer me some advice or help about epilepsy and depression in connection to bad eating please help :( i wouldnt ask if i didnt need it
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Hope you're doing ok!! Unfortunately I don't have any words of wisdom in this department, but I think you should be proud of the fact that you at least come out of it. Every time. Even if it's a struggle. Because remember, the things that challenge us are the most rewarding. Be strong! 
14 May 14 by member: Tamzen
hey I'm ok my brain just feels abit fuzzy still but takes me about a week or so to heal up and I cnt really eat much as the side ofmy ttongue is bitten off :( and u saybu dnt have words of wisdom but u just gave me some nw lol :) tnx 
14 May 14 by member: Ibiza122
Hi. I really feel for you. My hubby suffers from epilepsy. He gets fits now and again and often blackouts. Its very hard to see someone you love going through that. He is on medication that seems to control It a little bit. Just be strong and be proud of yourself for get back up everytime.  
14 May 14 by member: AmyMahaye
feels like im getting sucked into a black hole honestly, i used to get it so rarely but now im averaging on one a month and it sucks balls, at the moment im so ashamed to even log the crap that im eating, this always tends to happen its like a cycle that i cant seem to break....1) get on track to being healthy 2)have a seizure....3) Spiral out of control 
15 May 14 by member: Ibiza122
Okay, I don't have exactly the same problem as you do, but I do have depression and so does my entire family (On one side)! What worked for my depression will not work for someone else, each person is too different and no one handles it the same way, but I know it's hard to get away from that darkness just always tugging at you, but one thing I did learn is that it is never going away, it's always going to be there and you have to accept it, embrace it even! It sounds silly but once you embrace your "Dark Side" it becomes less daunting. Eating is unfortunately very much connected with depression since your imbalances can trigger many reactions, but trust me - You are rather lucky that spiraling into the fridge is your backdrop! So don't worry too much about it - the more you stress about it, the worse it gets ! Put it on the backburner and try to leave it there! It does NOT define you and it never will!  
15 May 14 by member: Shygetslean
thanks for those words of wisdom shy :) yeah depression is a b!tc# but the epilepsy makes it really bad and no matter how hard i try to accept it i just cant accept the epilepsy part of it and i think thats what makes it so hard for me....but ur right im not going to let this define and control me, from tomorrow il start relogging things and taking control of my own situation and not letting my life be dictated to me by a stupid medical condition!!! 
15 May 14 by member: Ibiza122
Ya unfortunately I can not relate to that, can only imagine how hard it must be ! But you are not what the Doctor says or what happens to you, you are who you decide to be and no one can ever take that from you! So decide that you are stronger and better and happier than ever and live up to it, you only have one life and even though it might have hardships in it, you can still make it your own and live the s##t out of it !! :) Good Luck! 
15 May 14 by member: Shygetslean
come to think of it, the doctors told me that i prob wont make it past the age of 18 and well f#k that cause im 22 now so u right, time to make a change starting tomorrow lol :P (today ima relax and chill lol) 
15 May 14 by member: Ibiza122


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