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Its Wednesday.
And I feel a little better after yesterday. Not 100% better.
The gas, the grumbles, and the 'thousand knots in my lower stomach' are still here. But so far, the dire pain has left the building.
It probably has to do with the fact that I DID NOT over eat last night. This took a lot of will power, along with a cup of peppermint tea, and about 5 sticks of gum. Especially since I was stressed, bored, and hungry around 10:30 last night whilst I cooked dinner for my mom right after we had just come home from a long, long day. I did eat before bed. I had the other half of my odwalla bar, and i do remember taking the last bite and thinking to myself, "okay i'm done." and setting about half of the half down on my desk.
I hope I can work out today. I'm actually really excited to start again. I get to see my counselor tomorrow afternoon. My fiance is coming with me, but I think I am going to tell him everything tonight.
I want to say thank you to all of my buddies who have messaged me and commented my journals. Its taken me a long time to "come clean" so to speak, and seek help for these issues. You've definitely given me the guidance I need, and pointed me in the right direction. Thank you all so much. I really dont know how I would overcome this without all your support.
I found pictures of my self from about two years ago. I believe they were May of 07, right before I graduated.
I'm not my heaviest in them, but I am guesstimating I was around 225, maybe 235?
All i need now is the courage to post such pictures lol
Hibernation is a state of inactivity and metabolic depression in animals.
HA! oh, if you only knew...
I hope today is a good day. I hope I feel even better tomorrow. I'm kinda hungry now... not a painful hungry. But a normal, empty "i am hungry, now its time to eat" hunger pang. Wow, I havent felt that in about a week.
But thats a good thing, right?
Diet Calendar Entries for 18 March 2009:
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1309 kcal
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Fat: 15.38g | Prot: 67.37g | Carb: 239.97g.
Breakfast: banana, whole wheat english muffin, live active cottage cheese. Lunch: naked juice, chicken breast, baby carrots, apple. Dinner: Nuts 'n' Fruit, honey mustard, spinach, tomato, egg white, kidney beans. Snacks/Other: trident, strawberries, orange, light and fit, cooked shrimp, spinach, steamfresh brown rice, strawberries. more...
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2319 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Desk Work - 4 hours, Shopping - 20 minutes, Running (jogging) - 5/mph - 2 minutes, Walking (exercise) - 3.5/mph - 10 minutes, Walking (brisk) - 4/mph - 15 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 10 hours and 33 minutes, Driving - 20 minutes, Exercise machine (moderate) - 20 minutes. more...
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