MissUnderstood440's Journal, 10 February 2014

Well after a few ROUGH weeks. I am here and more focused than ever. I am a control freak,,so If one part of the diet does not go as planned in my mind I have RUINED everything and it is over. I am starting a new me TODAY. I have spent my whole life as the fat girl. My baby pics I have multiple chins and my moms pet name was pumpkin head. I had issues eating and hiding food at a young age, that I recently found out from my mom. I was 100 pounds when I was ten. I was 200 by the time I was in high school. Senior year I had the dreaded words FAT spray painted on my car. Since I got my drivers license, and every year after my ID says 160 pounds. I cant tell you when or if I have ever been 160. In the last year I have been depressed,,,eating my feelings..issues..and problems. Oh and I was drinking ALOT. I tried to start a diet at the beginning of year I was doing good then I fell off the "new me wagon" so to speak. So here I am being honest about my weight! I need to be accountable...So here we GO!

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Thank you for sharing your story MissUnderstood440! =) Being able to share your story here definitely shows that you are determined to start and commit to your journey towards a healthier you! =) 
10 Feb 14 by member: ZivaDavid11
I have fallen off the wagon more times than I can count. I was skinnnnnnnnyyyy most of my childhood. Until I was about 16 or so and then I started gaining... some bad things happened in my life and I turned to food for comfort. Then I got pregnant at 18 and thought I could just eat for 2 , that was 80 pounds gained that I never lost. And then kid 2 and 3 and I still never lost it . The best I ever did was in 2008 , after my divorce I got down to 180. But then I got careless and fell off the wagon. I started this year at 243 ... right now I am 229. And I am determined like I have never been before. I totally understand where you are coming from ... its hard ... I struggle still everyday with the choices I make , other days I am just plain disgusted with myself for letting this happen, angry that I stayed this size for years and convinced myself I didnt care. I do care ALOT. I dont want to be depressed. I want to be happy and feel healthy. I want to be healthy. the support I am finding here helps me more than I can say. Dont give up on yourself... You can do it : )  
10 Feb 14 by member: chryssm

     
 

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