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Man I did horrible yesterday doubling my point allowance. It was a rough night too much drinking and unnecessary calories but I was just trying to numb my feelings since my boyfriend told me he took a job in another state and will be moving soon. I thought alcohol would make things better and I would be OK with it, but one drink too many and things turned bad. I made a big scene in front of all his friends and was crying hysterically...telling him I can't do it, I'm over him and the relationship, which I am not, but feel like he doesn't love me the way he did before because I put on so much weight and am not attractive to him. Big mistake in the drinking and now today I feel like crap and all I want to do is eat crap and sit around and cry.
I feel a binge coming on but I am on here instead staying out of the kitchen.
For the moment the food makes me feel better, but the way my butt looks in my jeans as a result does not.
Ugh I need some motivation in my life!
Diet Calendar Entries for 31 January 2009:
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1349 kcal
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Fat: 33.54g | Prot: 66.99g | Carb: 200.54g.
Breakfast: coffee with skim milk, DDSmart Egg White Turkey Sausage Flatbread Sandwich. Lunch: popcorn jolly, strawberries, lite bread, vitamuffin, Shrimp Marinara. Dinner: smart ones lasagna. Snacks/Other: oriental snack mix, pretzel sticks, roasted almonds. more...
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2268 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Running - 6/mph - 45 minutes, Resting - 15 hours and 15 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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