CollyMP's Journal, 03 February 2014

I am almost but not quite feeling better. OK, I am feeling "better", I am not feeling "good". I'm absolutely exhausted, but the coughing, sneezing, head pounding, can't get enough air, misery of it all has generally mostly gone away.

Just in time for TOTM.

So-yeah, not recording a weight today.

The one year anniversary of joining is coming up and it's not going to look wonderful. I have learned a lot about myself though. Hopefully this new year I can put some of what I've learned into practice.

I also have to be very judicious in accepting responsibility and accepting that not everything has been under my control. I have had multiple health issues this year, from changing hormone medications 3 times and finally stopping them, to a shoulder injury requiring heavy duty medications, to this going-on-five-weeks-now respiratory illness requiring steroids (yay, more hormones). So from my point of view, keeping any weight off at all is a fairly major accomplishment.

My eating habits are not great, though, and that is a part of the problem I can control. I also desperately need to exercise, and this is another part I can control. I might only have limited success with these parts, but it's what I've got to work with.

Clearly this was just not my year to tackle a major weight loss, though I did lose and keep off some weight. I do not binge eat any more, I stop eating before I am overstuffed 80% of the time now, and I make better food choices about 60% of the time. I am a work in progress, but I AM making progress. These are all positives and they will all help me ultimately reach my goal.

I have given up trying to approach this as "I'm going to get this weight off quickly and keep it off forever". I have accepted that there are things I need to not just learn but put into practice in order to successfully take off and keep off a substantial amount of weight. Yes, it's going to take me longer. Ah well...I've got the time, right?

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Progress not perfection, my dear, and you have indeed made much progress. Wonderful. Well done. 
04 Feb 14 by member: FullaBella
Having learned a lot about yourself is great, and realizing that the weight isn't going to come off quickly is also great. This journey is one huge learning curve, for all of us. Sometimes it is 3 steps forward, one back. Just keep on coming here and doing the best that you can for yourself of any given day. It's the journey that counts, not the destination. Aren't I philosophical today :)  
04 Feb 14 by member: sarahsmum
LOL-you are indeed Izzy, but it's helpful philosophizing! Bella you're right on the money-progress, not perfection. I am at least recognizing that I have other things that need to be addressed before I can reasonably expect to lose weight and keep it off. And the notion of exercise at the moment is laughable. I got so weak last night hand washing dishes that I was shaking by the time I finished. Not lack of food, just lack of energy. I did do a huge amount of grocery shopping over the weekend-it was exhausting but needed to be done, and now I have healthy stuff I enjoy already here and ready for me. I have been gobbling down far too much food in an effort to actually taste it (this cold has been absolutely awful) and have been giving myself heartburn as a result. So, that's got to stop.  
04 Feb 14 by member: CollyMP


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