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So I haven't weighed in for a while because I went home to Kansas City over MLK Day and ate like it was vacation. This morning I realized that I'm truly in denial about my weight. When I got down to 136 before the trip home I thought, "Well of course, this is my actual weight." As if the higher numbers I carried on the scale a few days prior were just some fluke - a fluke that happened every time I got on the scale.
So after KC I didn't weigh in because I knew I'd gained some weight -- "water weight and bloat from all the alcohol and salt" I assured myself. Or maybe actual weight. This lead to about a week of VERY strict dieting and working out every single day. I think I expected a miracle of sorts, because I was very unhappy when I got on the scale yesterday morning I refused to believe I was STILL up from before my visit home.
Now I have moved beyond "Denial" and into "Acceptance". It's a little scary, but it feels good.
So I weigh-in today at 137.3. I believe this to be my real, actual weight right now. No excuses about my period, or salt intake, or not going to the bathroom :D. This is me, and if I want to be slimmer I have to work for it.
Wow, I didn't realize that would be so tough.
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137.3 lb
Lost so far: 0 lb.
Still to go: 20.3 lb.
Diet followed 100%.
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Diet Calendar Entry for 28 January 2009:
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700 kcal
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Fat: 11.17g | Prot: 38.87g | Carb: 115.83g.
Breakfast: apple, sugar. Lunch: vegetarian minestrone au bon pain, lettuce, starkist albacore, whole grain tortilla. Snacks/Other: pear. more...
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gaining 0.5 lb a week
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