ClassicRocker's Journal, 29 November 2013

Interesting experiment with eating "normal" the last 2 days during the holiday. First and foremost, I never in a million years would have imagined I ate that many calories in one day 2250 & 2550. Yesterday, I took smaller portions 1/4-1/2 cup servings trying to be mindful of amounts. The killer other then the pies was the 1/4c of cranberry sauce and the stuffing. Sheesh. Even my homemade gravy didn't come close.

So I have to scratch my head and wonder how many calories I ate prior to being "mindful".

Sadly, I will admit that I am obsessed with measuring and watching everything I eat. The result of 2 years of constant dieting. This can be good and bad. Good in that it helps me stay on the diet with the fear in the back of my mind of regaining the 75lbs. I've lost. Bad in that when I decide to "go off the diet", I still obsess over what I eat and begin the guilt trip. Even though I know full well it is my intention to eat whatever I want, I can't really and truly enjoy the food as I know it's not healthy and I keep thinking, "I shouldn't be eating this". What insanity.

It took someone posting to say, technically "sh*t or get off the pot". Do it, enjoy it, then resume your diet. Instead of worrying about it.

Commented to someone that I would do another challenge between now and the New Year. But common sense tells me that it would be an insanity challenge in that I begin baking my fruit cakes this week, and then cookies the following couple of weeks. Would begin a new one the beginning of the year. Not now.

Yeppers. Learning as I go on. And know that if I'm going to indulge, to do it with an open heart and mind and not continually scrutinizing what I eat. Missing out on the best part of it. Enjoying the food.

Will wait until next week to weigh myself. I did go nuts on the blueberry and pumpkin pies. There's still several slices in the fridge, but they've got hubby's name on them. Back on track as of this morning. And will get back into exercising. Another promise I've made and never fulfilled.


Diet Calendar Entry for 29 November 2013:
1042 kcal Fat: 51.09g | Prot: 104.41g | Carb: 34.74g.   Breakfast: Butter, Jones Dairy Farm All Natural Fully Cooked Turkey Sausage, Coffee, Egg. Lunch: Coffee (Brewed From Grounds), Spinach, Wegmans Cleaned and Cut Rainbow Salad, Kraft Fat Free Zesty Italian Dressing, Dole Very Veggie Salad, Kirkland Signature Extra Lean Ham, Utz BBQ Flavored Pork Rinds. Dinner: Coffee (Brewed From Grounds), Turkey Light Meat, Kraft Miracle Whip Dressing, Sweet Pickle Relish, Cauliflower, Turkey Leg Meat and Skin (Fryer-Roasters), Mustard, Boiled Egg, Giblet Gravy. more...

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You did a very good job describing my feelings about the Holidays. The whole thing of it is, since we live in the real world our holidays (and other special events) revolve around food and we somehow have to learn to deal with it. When you get this figured out, please share!  
29 Nov 13 by member: BuffyBear
I'm hoping the Christmas period will be different and that I can go into it with a different frame of mind. But also knowing the true value of carbs... 272 on Thanksgiving Day. Wow. I rarely do 30-40/day. Starting to think out my menu for the holidays already and wanting to make it as low carb as possible. Which for myself wouldn't be a problem. Hubby lives and breaths carbs and sugar. Wish I didn't have to bake. So if you come up with a game plan, please let me know too.  
29 Nov 13 by member: ClassicRocker
Love this journal Classic, took the words right off of my finger tips lol. I didn't eat mindfully though, it was a borderline all out binge when I was baking pumpkin rolls. Thanksgiving I actually kept it together pretty well. I am getting back in to exercise this week, hell or high water. I live in fear of regaining, although I know that's ridiculous because it takes a long time to gain real fat back. (you wouldn't think so from my recent weigh in) So I like to over indulge then beat the crap out of myself for it. In the end, not worth it... at all. But like you, I can't just stop baking, I have a husband and family that relies on me for all their Christmas goodies. Plus I love baking. I just have to pull myself together lol. Ugh, damn holidays ;-)  
30 Nov 13 by member: Yolanda9179

     
 

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