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Holy Moly.... what got into me!
I was so careful all day....then BAM. Got home, started dealing with a stressful situation, and as I was making travel arrangements....I trance-like ate a ba-gillion calories.
I wasn't even that hungry - it was like a compulsion. I thought I had gotten past that sort of thing. =(
4 cups of cornflakes? I was wanting something to munch on, but 4 cups worth?? And the weird part...I KNOW it was 4 coups, because I measured it...but without making any connection in my mind as to what I was doing. It didn't even break my stride.
I have a terminally ill relative, and need to get back state-side asap, but I can't always use crisis and stress as the excuse for my crazy eating habits. =(
Do you ever wish you could fast forward in your life a little sometimes? To get through the bad parts quickly and find out how everything turned out?
That is silly wistful thinking for me, though. If I could do that every time I had an uncomfy situation, I'd miss years and years of my life. I just need to learn how to create peace and stability in the midst of everything. And actually devote time and effort towards myself. I have no idea why promises to myself are the ONLY ones I can't/won't keep.
I am so disappointed. =( I'd been so proud of myself for restarting my conviction to write everything, and to take some control back, yesterday.
Oh well, I will go to the gym in a few, and try to burn at least SOME of that ridiculous dinner spike.
I hope everyone else is doing this better than I am.
Diet Calendar Entries for 02 December 2010:
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2342 kcal
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Fat: 41.33g | Prot: 131.56g | Carb: 356.49g.
Breakfast: protein bar. Lunch: milk tea, rice, apple, banana, protein bar. Dinner: frosted flakes, stuffing, protein bar. Snacks/Other: potato soup. more...
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3546 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Circuit Training - 20 minutes, Bicycling (leisurely) - <10/mph - 10 minutes, Desk Work - 8 hours, Resting - 7 hours and 30 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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