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It's been a week since I started going to the YMCA. I've been three times and I am finding myself rather reluctant to go. It's nuts because I really am excited about the idea of going. Here's the thing, I have this hang up about working out in front of people I don't know. It's ridiculous I know, nobody is watching me, more over, nobody cares. I KNOW this but as with all types of "phobia", it's irrational. I am the type of person that has no problem stating my opinion on a variety of subjects and public speaking has never been an issue. I'm also pretty good at self analyzing. What I have discovered about myself has set off light bulbs everywhere!
I was a painfully shy child, not very good at athletics and I was always compared to other kids my age. Out of a group of four cousins all about the same age, I was "the fat one". I WASN'T FAT! Looking back at pictures, I wasn't too fat or too skinny, I was healthy. This idea that was molded into my developing brain that I wasn't good enough has effected so many areas in my life. I won't go into all the details but it's amazing to me.
I can not let this effect me anymore. I am better than this idea. I have pushed through so many obstacles in life, why would I even think of allowing this one to rule me? Now every time I get that nervous feeling in my gut, I have to say to myself, that's just that shy little girl talking, you're a stronger woman than she ever believed you could be.
"I am strong, because I've been weak.
I am fearless, because I've been afraid.
I am wise, because I've been foolish."
Diet Calendar Entries for 28 September 2013:
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1505 kcal
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Fat: 55.85g | Prot: 57.08g | Carb: 196.81g.
Lunch: Hungry Howie's Pizza Deluxe Italian Sub. Dinner: Egg Roll with Chicken or Turkey, Sticky Rice, Sweet and Sour Chicken or Turkey. Snacks/Other: World's Finest Chocolate Malted Milk Balls. more...
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4645 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Walking (moderate) - 3/mph - 2 hours, Walking (slow) - 2/mph - 4 hours, Housework - 3 hours, Driving - 2 hours, Desk Work - 2 hours, Sleeping - 6 hours, Resting - 5 hours. more...
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