Lizzie983's Journal, 18 July 2013

A bunch of days back at the worse time of my life. No sleep, tension and anxiety, fear toloose somebody important, all together with travelling. Gee...
I have seen a pattern. I realized on my skin again, ho I gained 10kg in such a short time and why my mood was so bad and depressive.
Well,on Monday I went to Frankfurt for work, left early in the morning, back late in the evening. I was super nervous for an important work meeting there. It went well, and I eve had a chance to see a friend of mine. That was super nice, to see her after more than 2 years. She told me I look very slim now, and I seem to be way stronger than I was. Wow! What a compliment!! :)
Anyway, I have seen what happened. Once at the station waiting for my train to go back home, I was so so so incredibly tired and felt like eating so much. I had huge ice cream and a sandwich. And while on the train I felt like eating more, but I didin't. I haven't been able to sleep for 2 nights before the meeting and 2 nights after. Have been so tense and nervous. And also, I am afraid about the relationship with my partner... DP is leaving for 1 month for work, but I doubt this relationship will survive long distances, since it's not that long we are together. And in a few months, DP is leaving for 6 months in a row. I feel so hurt by this. I am alone here, my family being in Italy, and my partner leaving as weel, will make me feel so alone again.
So, all those feelings put me back on 2010/2011. I felt so depressed, hopeless, angry, nervous. And I have been eating like crazy. Bad food choices.
Yesterday evening I went to swim, I have been able to sleep, and today I feel way better. I want to be out of this negative circle of emotions.
Time to go to work!

Have a good time, fatsecreters!
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Lizzie, hope you feel better soon. I extracted these from a book that I just finished called "the Thrive Diet". It's a book about nutrition and sports performance. I know you know this but I want to remind you. It says, "If stress, and therefore cortisol, remains elevated, several problems arise to hamper our body's smooth functioning. One is that the body shifts fuel sources.  Instead of. Burning fat as fuel, a stressed person's. System will burn carbohydrate in the form of sugar, and. The body begins to store the body fat instead of using it for energy. Stress-free people are fat-burning machines. Stressed people, on the other hand, burn and in turn crave carbohydrates. And cravings themselves are a form of psychological stress.". And then, "Another health concern that regularly crops up as stress mounts is the inability to sleep soundly.  We have all likely had difficulty asleepp after a traumatic event, or perhaps even after taking on a new,  uncertain project at work. As you probably suspected, high cortisol levels are again to blame. And lack of sleep further raises cortisol levels. It's a vicious circle."  
18 Jul 13 by member: Helewis
Heather- this makes so much sense. Lizzie, have you ever tried yoga, or hypnosis for relaxation? I do both and they help with stress and sleep. I hope things get easier for you! 
18 Jul 13 by member: Lindsay6384

     
 

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