caged liberty's Journal, 25 August 2008

GREMLINS ARE BACK IN THE HOUSE!

My peace has been shattered but I am trying to be strong about it.

I am looking for positives and the biggest positive I can find is that she can babysit Little Bear so I can get back to my treadmill and exercise. She was 'delivered' back from Canada by her sister and family so it was a nice weekend spent shopping for two days straight...(not me, them!!)

The other really nice thing was that it was Little Bears birthday on 21st August but we didnt really celebrate because it was a weekday. So when the guests came over on the weekend, we had a mini party amongst ourselves. I wrapped up the numerous little gifts I had bought him and presented them from each one of the aunts and uncles etc.. I even found a really great book called, "I love you mommy" and the main character is called- LITTLE BEAR. I thought how perfect for me! Then hubby treated everyone to a restaurant in honor of Little Bears 3rd Birthday.

So the weekend went well but already the apprehension has started again. Today I went to pick up Ms. Drama Queen from her first day of school and thought about making Gremlin volunteer once or twice a week at the school. I think that would keep her busy and out of my hair.

AN IDLE MIND IS A DEVILS WORKSHOP. How true that saying is. As long as she is busy, she is an angel. The moment she is bored, some devillish behavior starts. She gossips about me and my family..usually with lies or exaggerations, just to pass the time with her family. Or she is ruining my clothes by mixing colors that bleed with whites because she is always in a rush without bothering to think first.

I am looking at a sign at the top of my FS page saying 'my weight: 140.2lbs, 52 days ago". That means its been 52 days since I stopped dieting efficiently. I havent gone back to the initial gluttonous behavior that caused my excess weight gain but not eating the salads I should. Still using Splenda instead of sugar but also adding occasional cookies to the mix. Not eating so many fried foods but rice has come back. I think that as long as I steer clear of too many white products, I may not need to lose more weight..just make sure I dont gain any more.

Enough hiding from people, better go down and show my face. See ya all..sorry I havent been reading your journals even though you all are so wonderful about reading mine. I just come here, vent and then run off. I will try and read some if I can. My mood seems so down with gremlins around that I dont feel like I have anything positive to say to anyone.

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i am so sorry that you are miserable...think the idea of having her volunteer a couple days a week is great...since she is there to stay...you might need to draw boundry lines...like stay out of my laundry...you do yours and i'll do mine...lol...nobody touches my laundry but me...is she too old to get a job...maybe 3 or 4 hours a day... 
25 Aug 08 by member: veggies yuk
It sounds like you are coming up with lots of good, constructive ideas to help you deal with The Gremlin (I'll call her TG for short!). The stress of dealing with TG is obviously taking its toll on you. It is very difficult to maintain focus on your healthy habits when you are so often being distracted in mind, body and spirit. Just keep working at it and I am sure that each of you will eventually "find your place". The push and pull won't last forever if you keep making efforts to work with the issues you have. It's great that you can count on TG to watch Little Bear while you have a workout. The exercise will help destress you and will fight off the carbs from attaching to your hips at the same time : ) Check in when you can. I don't mind that you don't have time right now to visit all of our journals. You need the time to get your life in order first. Peace!  
25 Aug 08 by member: evelyn64
Hang in there. We all understand. 
25 Aug 08 by member: sararay
That stinks that things aren't getting any better. As for the laundry, my ex use to do stuff like that all the time and ruin things. I ended up resorting to buying 3 tall laundry baskets: 1 for dark, 1 for whites and 1 for pastels. Seemed to help, and I didn't have to go buy anything new for a while to replace anything! =) Good luck!  
25 Aug 08 by member: Cheeks
Keep in touch the best you can... Even if this is a place for you to vent right now, that's okay. It's good that you have this place to do that without anyone judging you!!! Cheeks and Veggies both have good ideas about the laundry situation. I think volunteering is a great idea as well-- both to get her out of the house and to get her a little closer to the kids lives and know what goes on outside of the home. We're all here for you whenever you need us!! 
25 Aug 08 by member: katrinat
Hang in there,CL.. Good first step in having her watch Little Bear while you workout! Volunteering at the school is another great idea. Hope she goes for it! Keep in touch. We're here for you :) 
25 Aug 08 by member: mbhpro
You have our sympathy -- MILs can be so difficult to deal with. HEY WAIT! I AM one!!! Oh dear! 
25 Aug 08 by member: gramnbear
Oh honey. I hate that you are in such turmoil. You are such a bright, talented and caring person. Over the last 7 months, I've learned so much from you - listened to your wise advice for other people and watched you grow yourself. I enjoy your writing, your well-thought insights and your ability to analyze things so perfectly for others. I'm so glad that you are finally seeing some ways to find a place for TG. And I think you need to think about it like it was happening to me. What would you tell me to do? You really have a way of seeing things so clearly. Use that beautiful talent for yourself. And, at the same time, feel free to vent ANY TIME!!! 
26 Aug 08 by member: Paige E

     
 

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