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Day 476- All is going well.
Wanted to get a chance to talk about 'demons' or my demons. Demons for me are things or habits I do that I don't like about my myself. I have 2 big ones, spending money and how I act or what I say when I drink. I know I am better today than I was a year ago, but these things really get me pissed off when they come up.
Yes, it may be strange, but I am a guy who loves to shop. I love to wonder stores looking for a bargain. It is the rush you get when you find that bargain that get me going. But what has this lead to? A house full of crap and debt!!!! I also am one of those folks that once I buy one, I have to buy more. A good example is my running gear. I have enough running shirts to not have to do wash for a 2 weeks. But for some reason I keep buying shirts. I find a reason that the ones I have are not the right ones and the one I am getting is better. I am so tempted to buy running shoes, all of last years models are on such cheap sales right now. But I have to convince myself that I need to wear out my current active pair before I can buy new ones and that I should just buy the newer model. I have 3 pairs of good running shoes right now. I sit here every morning and read through who knows how many emails of from retailers, what a waist of my time! I don't buy anything, but I have to see what the offer is.... I am getting better and I am controlling myself more and more.
How I act and what I say when I drink are another story. When I am not drinking I am one of those folks that will politely tell you how it is, but when I drink, I tend to get right to the point and tell you what I think. I don't like that..... I do not drink near as much as I use to. I have been trying to work on why I drink, in most cases it is that I want to slip away and relax. The other big one is to be social, I am shy and find a drink will help me relax. What is funny, is when I am working I am not shy at all, but once I am done working, I fall to the back of the pack and watch. There is more I need to get out about this, just not clear on how I want to put it.
I know I am no where near done on this topic of demons and I know we all struggle with our own. This is just something I thought I needed to get started on getting out. I have hit on some of these in the past. There are a ton of little demons I need to fight also.
Chose your battles, not all lead to fruit.
Diet Calendar Entry for 16 May 2013:
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1828 kcal
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Fat: 47.26g | Prot: 110.83g | Carb: 257.58g.
Breakfast: Trader Joe's Chia Seeds, Trader Joe's Original Unsweetened Coconut Milk, Spinach, Parsley, Kale, Strawberries, Honeydew Melons, Bananas, Apples, Hard-Boiled Egg. Lunch: Bistro Balsamic Lite Dressing, Autumn Harvest Salad. Dinner: Chicken Thigh (Skin Not Eaten), Chicken Drumstick (Skin Not Eaten), Black Beans, Cooked Asparagus (from Fresh). Snacks/Other: Honeydew Melons, Apples, Apples. more...
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