RedHolly's Journal, 11 May 2013

Confession: I am a diet junkie and have severe “Dieting A.D.D.”. There, I said it.

Weight loss is ALWAYS on my mind -- even when I make bad food choices. Any self-sabotage is usually short-lived, just like the “diet plan of the month” (as my husband likes to call it).

I have attempted WeightWatchers, Nutrisystem, Atkins, vegetarian, fasting, 100% diet frozen meals, Spike Diet, Slim Fast, low fat and calorie counting dieting plans. I have also purchased countless workout videos, including Slim in 6, Windsor Pilates, Yoga programs, 10-Minute Trainer DVD program, and many others. I also have a Total Gym, Tracy Anderson’s Mini Trampoline, and a Kettleworx kettle bell workout system. I am sure I forgot a few others things, but if it was on an infomercial, I likely have it.

I’ve battled the same 20-30 lbs over the last two decades, weighing between 170-185 lbs with a goal weight always set at 155 lbs. After a long dieting hiatus in 2012, and hit my heaviest yet (200 lbs!).

I started Atkins again this March. As usual, I kick things off pretty well. Super motivated and following the plan. I drop a couple pounds. I begin working out a few days. Some weeks pass, and motivation begins to slip. I plateau. Then a major distraction (i.e. vacation) and it’s a downward spiral from there. I have started to binge on Atkins bars, which I know is wrong. I have been eating 3-4 of the chewy, gooey bars per day. The Dieting A.D.D. is in full force and I have officially strayed… again.

Tonight I threw away four full boxes of Atkins bars. I took a long pause before tossing them… thinking of the money wasted. But it had to be done.

I then realized what motivates me most is STARTING a diet. I like the feeling of a new challenge and a fresh beginning. It is obvious that this mindset is truly my battleground with weight issues. My wallet is shrinking, but my waistline isn’t. I haven’t committed to one thing long enough to succeed.

So, what did I do next?

I spent $200 for Advocare’s 24-day cleansing challenge. My logic this time -- it is 24 days, and spending that kind of money, I WILL HAVE TO see it through. I am not sure how effective it will be for me, but I will put forth the effort to find out. I begin my next journey of 24 days of cleansing on Thursday, May 16. My husband is NOT going to be pleased with yet another diet plan. But I will stay optimistic.

I never quit. I just perpetually restart…

Diet Calendar Entries for 11 May 2013:
1576 kcal Fat: 43.62g | Prot: 46.90g | Carb: 126.08g.   Breakfast: sugar free coffee creamer, coffee. Lunch: Milk (1% Lowfat with Added Vitamin A), Quaker Hearty Medleys - Apple Cranberry Almond. Dinner: Which Wich Wheat Bread, Which Wich The Cuban, Which Wich Regular Mayo, Which Wich Swiss Cheese, Which Wich Lettuce, Which Wich Pickles, Which Wich Peanut Butter Cookie. Snacks/Other: A&W Diet Root Beer, Vodka. more...
2679 kcal Activities & Exercise: Desk Work - 8 hours, Housework - 1 hour, Resting - 7 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
on diet Atkins  

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I' totally understand! I've just gotten on the scale to see I've gained almost an entire kg- now I'm depressed :( what definitely he.lps is to exercise- so I'm off to gym. All the best to you 
11 May 13 by member: Cecilia12345678
Hi RedHolly. I can relate.... I lose the same 20lb ever year, but something is different this time. I am calorie counting instead of doing Weight Watchers and I'm enjoying it. I think the main thing is to enjoy it and don't stress about it. You say you enjoy starting a diet, well I'm the same too, so motivated etc etc. I now look at each week as starting a diet. I try my best all week, try not to go over my allowance, but if I do then so be it. Then Monday morning I get weighed and its a brand new week, everything from the previous week is forgotten and I 'start again'. I hope your new plan works for you, good luck. Oh and I also bought a Total Gym off the shopping channel about 8 years ago, it is in my loft and I have used it once !! :-) 
11 May 13 by member: shaz7140
You are cracking me up! Why don't you at least recoup some of the lost funds by writing a "How to NOT diet" book. ROFL. Of all the things you've mentioned, WW, Atkins and Veganism are all lifestyles. Any one of which would have been a sustainable choice. However, being an Atkins person myself, I could have written you LOTS of different "diets" to start, probably 1 a week if necessary all based (and Atkins legal) for plenty of "rotatable" NEW diets to start! If you're all about the start, just write several new "plans" and use them based on when you know your "diet" interest will wane. I never really thought about it, but I eat a lot like that. If you look through my diet calendar you will notice I tend to eat mostly the same things for a few weeks, then my entire focus shifts and you won't see virtually any of those foods in the next 2 or 3 weeks. Just something to think about...that doesn't require an infomercial (we have no TV here) or cash outlay (no much of that here either!). 
11 May 13 by member: Carb Tracker for Gina
Those area great ideas. Instead of focusing on the end goal (which seems like a mountain), I need to live by each week's challenges and accomplishments. I am not fooling myself... there aren't any miracle plans or quick fixes. But I also know that I am somewhat a hoarder of dieting plans. I am not into clothing, purses, or shoes. Instead, I have a bad habit of collecting dieting plans and exercise equipment. That and the latest state-of-the-art vaccuum cleaners. :) 
11 May 13 by member: RedHolly
Holly, I think quite a few of the members here can probably relate to what you're saying. I too, have spent a good portion of my life looking for the "ideal" diet, the one that is sustainable and will allow me to live as I want. It took a lot of years before I finally had an epiphany and realized there is no such thing. There isn't a diet plan in the world that will peel the pounds from my body and still allow me to eat the way I want. I slowly came to realize that the only answer is to find something you can truly live with, aka a lifestyle change. I think the whole "diet" mentality works against us, in that we think of a diet as a temporary measure. Something to suffer through for a few weeks, months, etc. before we can go back to our normal lives. Unfortunately doing what I was doing before is what got me here in the first place, LOL. Good luck with this new plan, I hope it works for you! 
12 May 13 by member: MrsB1228

     
 

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