FullaBella's Journal, 09 May 2013

Well today is 'my' Saturday and the next three days will be 'my' Sunday. I'm not normally one to mess with the calender but I checked with the Mayans and they agreed it would be okay in the wake of their big goober prediction last year. Storming here today - but I'm still at peace and feel happy.

Intuitive healthy eating is settling in and taking a really comfortable firm hold of me. Last night's dinner was another single skillet delight of jumbo shrimp, sun dried tomatoes, pesto sauce, spinach, artichokes and mushrooms. I was avoiding anything that required chopping.

Instinctively I am doing really well. I'm becoming the RainMan of the food diary as I complete the second half of my twelve month committment to mentally databasing the nutritional makeup of food. '327 calories... de de de definitely 327 calories...'

But moreover, I've grown very comfortable with 'how much do I really want to eat.' I have reached a point where I know that eating to 'overfull' will disappoint me as it robs me of the opportunity to enjoy the food I just ate.

Being preoccupied thinking about the pain in my stomach or pain in my soul regretting that I failed at mindful eating is no way to spend the evening.

In the past I'd have looked at the label and said 'oh, six jumbo shrimp is considered a serving, huh? For who? A small child? Heck, that doesn't even make a decent happy meal! Oh, it totals 60 calories only? Well then, I'll have 12 as I am sure I have room in my RDI for the 120 calories.'

Now I look at the over all dish and think 'hmm, as I've added all of this other stuff into the skillet it's really a lot of food to try to eat at one time. Don't. Save some for tomorrow.'

And surprisingly, as I savor the wonderful taste in my mouth I can remember it later. No rushing and brushing my teeth to clear the memory. No anxiety because I want to eat the rest. No hunger. Just satisfaction at the meal prepared and how it made me feel.

It starts making sense. A whole can of tomatoes is considered 3.5 servings when it's part of the makeup of a meal. It doesn't matter that the whole can is only 105 calories; I won't enjoy my meal if I eat too much of anything at one time.

It makes me angry with restaurants. If six shrimp is listed under 'starters' as an appetizer, naturally I'm going to think 'well, if that's the starter, a bigger portion of something should certainly follow to be the entree.'

No more, not today. Hopefully never ever again.

The reason for the Bella calendar customizing today is tomorrow is my birthday and I'm closing my business for my 'three Sunday's.' No big plans. I'm thinking a mani - pedi tomorrow morning. And maybe a massage (elsewhere) in the afternoon. Not ready to return to the texting yakker just yet.

I'll not likely have an ice cream cake nor any chocolate dipped strawberries delivered; I'm thinking the stepdaughter is still recovering from that Valentine fiasco. If she has and does I will handle it much more gracefully than I did then.

But I am considering, if my friend and I do spontaneously dine out, of having simply a dessert instead of the meal. I'm not sure yet. Predicting how I'll want to eat that far in advance is not mindful now, is it?

And in recognition of mindful eating and healing from addictions, I did make it to sleep last night sans the silly bedtime burrito fixation. Little by little.. day by day.

Thank you for reading. Have a wonderful day.

Bella

Diet Calendar Entries for 09 May 2013:
1717 kcal Fat: 105.22g | Prot: 106.27g | Carb: 101.40g.   Breakfast: Bacon, Egg, Tomatoes, Cheddar Cheese, Onions, Baby Spinach. Lunch: Mariani Sun Dried Tomatoes, Kirkland Signature Artichoke Hearts Marinated in Oil, Onions, Pork Loin (Tenderloin), Cucumber (with Peel), Tomatoes, Pesto Sauce, Classico Creations Sun-Dried Tomato Pesto Sauce. Dinner: Schwan's Fire Grilled Italian Cod. Snacks/Other: Smart Balance Omega Natural Peanut Butter, Cottage Cheese, Dry Roasted Almonds (with Salt Added), Dry Roasted Pistachio Nuts (with Salt Added), Schwan's Golden Fruit Blend. more...
1934 kcal Activities & Exercise: Sleeping - 24 hours. more...

   Support   

Comments 
BRAVO and Happy Birthday!! Have an awesome Day.  
09 May 13 by member: MissyAnn63
I hope it is a lovely birthday filled with the quiet delights of a joyful life. 
09 May 13 by member: CollyMP
Happy Birthday Bella. I think you deserve the desert. Any place around you that makes Bananas Foster (a favorite or mine). --- Do you have this restaurant around you? http://www.landrysseafood.com/... ------ Excellent Bananas Foster. ----- It is the meal! 
09 May 13 by member: deadcenter
Glad you are taking some time off, some 'you' time. Hope your birthday is awesome and that the massage is excellent. I know whatever you decide to eat, you will thoroughly enjoy and savour, guilt free. It's all coming together for you, piece by peace - type intended :) 
09 May 13 by member: sarahsmum
Bella happy birthday. I hope these days are filled with experiences that make you feel like a treasure. Hope you get a good masseuse this time.  
09 May 13 by member: sharonfriz
Happy Happy Birthday!! Have a great massage and mani/pedi!! I hope whatever you decide to do or eat will be amazing. So happy you are taking some time off to relax and enjoy!! Hey I like that Banana's Foster suggestion too. lol so good. I also have to admit that I spend large parts of the days thinking about what I am going to eat. What can I say? I just love eating. 
09 May 13 by member: chattycathy1955
Happy wonderful birthday girl..enjoy it to the max...:O) 
09 May 13 by member: BHA
PERFECT! Something has clicked! Don't you LOVE that feeling! To be comfortable with your choices, logging food, portions! You are on your way! Congradulations. Have fun on your birthday. My treat of choice is a mcdonalds ice cream cone:-) 180 calories.  
09 May 13 by member: Lizzygracemusic
@Missy - thank you. I shall try :-) @Colly - from your mouth to God's ear, aye? @Jay - hmmm.. no where like that in my town but thank you for the suggestion @ Isabel - I phoned for an appt (massage) and am still waiting. Love the semantics! @Sharon - thank you ~ I am so grateful for days like today @ Cathy - I actually realized this morning I 'wasn't' already thinking about eating... it's a nice change for me. @ Bren - thank you too. I won't be able to get out of Dodge like SOME people I know but just a few things away from Bellawood will be nice @Lizzy - I do love it, the feeling. I'm not being smug but I do feel confident. You know, all in all, I would love a nice bowl of fresh strawberries and maybe some yogurt - it sounds really good to me right now and would be a wonderful metaphor for the birth of my new year of living. Thanks again everyone. 
09 May 13 by member: FullaBella
Yes, fresh strawberries and yogurt or! Great fresh start. I know that when I want a piece of cake or some dessert as a treat, I look, it up on FS before going to get it, and quickly rethink the damage:-)  
09 May 13 by member: Lizzygracemusic
Woohoo!! Happy birthday and enjoy your time off!! 
09 May 13 by member: erika2633
Happy Birthday Angel! You have come so far over this year -- you should be so proud of all you've accomplished, how healthy you've become, the weight you've lost & the many of us you so selflessly support! You deserve at least 3 Sundays, a mani pedi, massage sans the texting & yakking and so much more! Wishing you much happiness & continued health over this next year! Happy, happy birthday! Xoxox 
09 May 13 by member: Ruhu
Happy birthday bella. Hope the sun is shining in your garden : )  
10 May 13 by member: sharonfriz
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! :D 
10 May 13 by member: SELouisiana
Happy Birthday Bella, I have been reading some of your journal entries, and I must say, you are def mindful eating!! Very interesting. Keep it up. One day at a time is right!!  
10 May 13 by member: paulacolette
Happy birth day to you! Happy birth day to yooooou, Happy birth day dear BELLA! Happy birth day to you!!!!!! And many more!!! 
10 May 13 by member: Lizzygracemusic
Well said Bella - as usual - I can't wait to make your shrimp concoction because it sounds right up my alley. I think we share the same style taste buds. I have all the ingredients but the shrimp (the ones I have in the freezer are coconut fried). I am dining out tonight after helping friend with the church directory photo shoot and then again at same friend's house or a restaurant on Saturday. Your analogy has given me visuals for my two evenings out. Appetizer only - maybe. Or divide my dinner in two portions to save for later. Happy Birthday friend - and wishing you many more with your healthy lifestyle. Thanks for all you are to us 
10 May 13 by member: Neptunebch
Happy belated Birthday, Bella!  
10 May 13 by member: DairyKing
@Lizzy - well, I did indeed have the strawberries & yogurt; they were great @Erika - thank you and I did! @Angel - thank you my friend - yes, it's been a heck of a change and now I have 2 Sundays' remaining @ Sharon - thank you and it DID. Started out cloudy after storms but sun came out for a beautiful day @ SE - thank you! @Paula - thank you for the buddy request - yep, somedays it's one bite at a time but they are getting easier @Lizzy - you know, I can hear you singing! @ Neptune - thank you... coconut shrimp sounds good but you're right - not so much mixed IN with the rest but would be great on the side w/the rest in a different bowl. @ DK - thank you stranger - good tohear from you. Thanks again everyone. It was a fabulous day. I'm blessed to have you all as friends! 
10 May 13 by member: FullaBella

     
 

Submit a Comment


You must  sign in to submit a comment
 

Other Related Links

Members

Other Journals for Make Peace with Myself



FullaBella's weight history


FullaBella's Recent Activity

FullaBella's Own Activity

FullaBella commented on myawethinTICself's Journal Entry.
FullaBella commented on DairyFarmersWife's Journal Entry.
FullaBella recorded a Journal Entry.
FullaBella commented on gingin40's Journal Entry.

FullaBella's Buddies

Deb_N replied to abdicant's post - A fun thread. What are you reading?.
kattay supported Deb_N's Journal Entry.

Other Member Diet Recent Activity

phcabrervi1 recorded a Weigh In at 162.3 lb.
JovialJ joined challenge No candy for Halloween Week!.
kattay supported Deb_N's Journal Entry.
jonny12mac recorded a Weigh In at 243.8 lb.
Newquiwe recorded a Weigh In at 132.3 lb.
swlker joined group Horse Lovers.
etheriau_test2 recorded a Weigh In at 155.3 lb.
lisad60 recorded a Weigh In at 118.6 lb.