Sweet Ce's Journal, 07 May 2013

the good the bad the ugly - and the beautiful don't have to live in isolation from each other....

This journal has very little to do with food.

My brother was arrested and has revealed his hidden life/priorities. Our family, spread across 5 states from east coast to rocky mountains to lone star state is in great pain. I keep thinking about the beautiful weekend I spent with my special new man. It all lives in me and I'm in a bit of turmoil.

The good parts are: I have friends who nurture me. My man is beside me. I'm not alone. I haven't binged on food - I did not even think to turn to it, I turned to those I love and who love me, beyond my family members who are in pain right now. I also knew enough to get out and walk through nature yesterday, getting vigorous exercise, changing my energy and letting go of all the negative that belongs to my brother. I can grieve for his choices but I don't have to identify with them. He is not me. When he's ready, I'm here to offer him the lessons I've learned from my own experiences. Until he lets go of the falsehood of his choices, though, I can't reach him.

Our family is working to find solutions but without my brother's involvement, we can only help ourselves and not him.

I'm really feeling quite ill over this so I'm going to change the scenery, go for a break.

Diet Calendar Entries for 07 May 2013:
1205 kcal Fat: 65.26g | Prot: 33.04g | Carb: 133.26g.   Breakfast: Almond Butter, Berries, Peaches, Almond Milk. Lunch: Apples, Almond Butter. Dinner: Amy's Rice Mac & Cheese, Terra Plain Sweet Potato Chips. Snacks/Other: Two Moms in the Raw Blueberry Granola Bar. more...
2427 kcal Activities & Exercise: Resting - 4 hours and 30 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours, Desk Work - 7 hours, Sitting - 4 hours and 30 minutes. more...


Good for you ~ so inspiring. Yep, food isn't the answer and you can't save anyone but yourself. You can have empathy for them but absorbing their pain does you no good. I always imagine my friend Isabel - sitting with stellar compassion but letting the heartbreak of others bounce off her. And you have done the same. Applauding you now so I have to stop typing.... 
07 May 13 by member: FullaBella
hehehe.... thanks Bella! 
07 May 13 by member: Sweet Ce


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