Yurtgirl2000's Journal, 13 April 2013

maybe i'm just not cut out for this stuff. i'm seeing a dr next week for a physical. i may ask about a shrink for my emotional/binge/closet/stress eating. i'm fine at the house all day when i'm busy but the drive thru after work, the drive thru frosties and shakes are all killing me. I literally have arguements with myself when i think about doing it, as i'm doing it and after i'm doing it while I'm eating the stupid food. I have managed to talk myself out of it quite a few times but not enough to make much difference.
stress eating: after a long 12-14 hrs at work where i pack only healthy options, i love, love, love to hit a drive thru for something, anything bad to eat on the way home. by the time i'm home, i'm relaxed and ready for bed. i then eat a handful of tictacs so my beau doesn't know i've just inhald 2 orders of onion rings from Arby's or a large fries from McDonalds.
cravings: i hide somewhere in the house, usually the basement while i'm on the computer with a pint of something sweet and cold. I have given up the Ben and Jerry's coz 1200 calories is wayyy too much for one sitting. Now i've been doing the 400 calorie pints of sorbet. sugar, i gots to have it.
i don't know. is it worth it? the beau says he loves me anyway. but i don't. i don't feel sexy so it doesn't happen and that's such a waste. my beau is very handsome and i am very attracted to him. its just tough when this belly and butt are in the way.
sigh.
186.0 lb Lost so far: 0 lb.    Still to go: 31.0 lb.    Diet followed poorly.
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I have heard that if you start adding in good food instead of worrying about what you are already eating....you will get used to the new food and actually start craving it. Eventually it will be easier to let go of the bad food.  
13 Apr 13 by member: ame16
You should try for 30 gr of protein for breakfast. It helps with the hunger later on in the day. 
13 Apr 13 by member: fatdot
I think that if it's taking over your life in many ways and making you miserable, than talking to someone is a good idea. You are not alone. Many of us have a love/hate relationship with food Also check out a book on Amazon (read the reviews) called "Becks Diet Solution." It's supposed to help people with behavioral and eating issues. Don't know if it can help you, but it can't hurt. Talking to your doctor is a good start. 
13 Apr 13 by member: Suzi161

     
 

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