arizonaprincess's Journal, 21 August 2010

I've had a very grumpy week, which in turns makes me feel crappy! Last week I was on a high, I lost a little over 2lbs and I felt GREAT. Saturday was the last day I recorded my lowest weight, which was 219. After that everyday this week I have been around 220-223, which is fine, I'm not worried about it going up to 223. I just don’t understand why it hasn’t gotten any lower then 220!! I don't understand what I did so differently this week that I did last week. I've been doing this for 6 months now (2 of those months I was stuck at 226) and I'm frustrated that I can't get into the hang of things.

So once again after weighing myself this morning, I was at 222, I was beyond frustrated. I went to the gym anyway and did an hour of Zumba and then after I jumped on the treadmill and ran for 8 mins!! I haven't taken in the fact yet that I can run for 8 min without stopping. A while 8 min at once, when I tried doing the Couch 2 5k challenge a few months ago I couldn’t get past week two and now I am running for 8 min!! I know I am getting stronger, but I still have a few things to work on. I still find myself getting out of breath when walking up the 15 or so steps to my house, but I can run for 8 min. I did try running outside last night, and I found that it is extremely hard for me. I ran out of breath and it was hot. Not quite sure what makes it easier to run on the treadmill then outside, but I'm sure by the end of the year, I'll be able too.

While running this morning, I find it easier to run longer when I concentrate on my breathing, and not so much on my body. I also tried to figure out why I didn't lose any weight this week., one of my buddies wrote in her journal, that there are just some things that I can NOT control and if I feel like I am doing things right then it will happen. I think one of the biggest problems I have is setting these little weight goals for myself. Losing 2lbs here, being at xxx amount of weight by here. I don't understand why I am trying to race with myself, I have time to lose weight! I think with all of these 'goals' I set with myself, only makes me feel like I am failing myself. I know that’s not true because I have lost freaking 40 lbs!! Something I NEVER thought I could do before without some special pill or drink or packaged meal.

I know I can do this, but I am putting to much importance on the numbers and I know they will drop. I think the best think for me to do is to put up my scale and try to get myself into a routine. Focus on the main goals here and that’s exercising more and eating better. I will have my monthly weigh ins at the gym and on my own scale, but the scale will go up. I feel like I will sabotage myself if I don't do this and I will not let that happen. I stuck with it even when I was in a rut for months, so I know I can stick through it for this.

Diet Calendar Entries for 21 August 2010:
1373 kcal Fat: 72.90g | Prot: 124.43g | Carb: 53.67g.   Lunch: eggs, center cut bacon, great value monterey, extra lean ground beef. Dinner: taco shells, extra lean beef, great value monterey, lettuce, rotel, lettuce. Snacks/Other: sargentos, oscar meyer chicken breast, hersheys special dark chocolate. more...
3047 kcal Activities & Exercise: Running (jogging) - 5/mph - 8 minutes, Dance (fast step, aerobic) - 1 hour, Resting - 14 hours and 52 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...


It is so easy to fall into focusing on numbers. I do it all the time!! You absolutely can stick with it ... it will change in time! 
21 Aug 10 by member: madaboutmoose
Yeah I get like that sometimes too about being whatever weight and going nuts on the numbers.. but you know and I know that we are here for the long haul.. and you HAVE lost 40 lbs.. that was no accident that was with the same hard work you are doing now.. so dont fret so long as you dont quit you will be successful. :)  
23 Aug 10 by member: Ceebee
Merry Christmas or Happy Holidays ... which ever one fits!! LOL!!! Thanks for being my buddy!! 
23 Dec 10 by member: madaboutmoose
Hope to see you back around here soon! Happy New Year! 
30 Dec 10 by member: k8yk


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