Ruhu's Journal, 04 April 2013

Up early again but slept well & ready to start my day in prayer --

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

I won't copy the entire prayer (as I did yesterday) here but am loving how the rest of it reads & praying it in its entirety. And I'll pray, breathe, log, post and express on this one day, meal, moment, bite or emotion at a time.

After a wonderful Easter weekend in the City & busy first couple of days back home (of course, there was work, housework, errands, bills, etc waiting for me), I have a couple of less busy days ahead & am looking forward to getting to some of those things that have been on the "to do" list for much too long not getting "to done"!

I want to share though some things I realized over the weekend & that have been gradually coming to me during this weight loss journey. One of the things I'm realizing is that what started as a process/journey/experiment to lose the weight I began putting on recently due to menopause and sugar cravings & binging, has become a wonderful self-realization adventure. I'm learning so much about myself, some related to food issues & weight and some not, but all adding so much to my life & my happiness. I'm really feeling like it's a turning point for me & one of the wonderful things (besides finding all of you, of course!) is that the weight/number on the scale is so insignificant in the scheme of things. Of course, I will always need to be & eat healthy and feel good about my size, but am realizing that I can be so much more to myself and others when I take care of myself first. I have so much more to offer then.

As many of you know, I've been traveling quite a bit lately -- one of the benefits of being an empty nester. Each trip has had its ups & downs, but in general, I've had eating struggles to some degree on each & when I return home, especially if to an empty house. This trip in the City was different even though I went back to my own hotel room each night (a time in the past when I would have craved sweets). I attribute this to several things that worked for me about this trip -- My friend & her boys wouldn't be ready to hit the road until 10:00ish giving me time each morning to workout, eat a healthy breakfast & journal here/read/meditate. On the day after the one night that I slept so poorly, I was able to go back to the room for a mid afternoon catnap & then rejoin them. And, they like me, were ready to call it a day by 8 or 9 each evening. Upon returning to my room each evening, I had planned for a piece of fruit & cup of tea if I wanted it which I did 2 of the 3 nights - I enjoyed the snack/dessert while I checked in here and with my health coach (she & I had set up ahead of time that I would email her each evening as a safety net). I felt so good all weekend, had a wonderful time & feel great about how it all went. I also learned some good info about myself & how I need to structure away from home times so that I am able to take care of myself.

One of the books I've been reading is called Quiet about being an introvert in an extrovert's world. I have learned to be an extrovert but am in many ways an introvert at heart & need time to myself. Being in social situations for an extended period of time is exhausting to me, & hence I need time on my own to rejuvenate. All of my trips have been socially exhausting at times as most travel is, so I need to realize that to take care of myself I need to schedule in down time. That is what I truly need to re-fuel. Instead, in the past, I've developed the habit of using food to re-fuel & have misread this exhaustion as hunger. In other words, my inner child is crying for comfort/alone time/a nap/time to meditate, but I have been feeding her instead.

So many lessons learned & to learn, so little time... enough said for today! xoxox

Diet Calendar Entries for 04 April 2013:
1177 kcal Fat: 34.54g | Prot: 66.40g | Carb: 186.22g.   Breakfast: Blackberries, Blueberries, Raspberries, Strawberries, Coconut Oil, Abbotsford Farms 100% Liquid Egg Whites, Bob's Red Mill Steel Cut Oatmeal. Lunch: Good Neighbors Super Food Quinoa Salad, Mixed Salad Greens, Vlasic Roasted Red Peppers, Whole Foods Market Avocado Vinaigrette Dressing, Plums, Sun-Dried Tomatoes, Olives, Artichokes (Globe or French). Dinner: Stew Leonard's Healthy Vegetable Soup, Trader Joe's grilled chicken strips, Boston Market Seasonal Fresh Fruit Salad. Snacks/Other: Trader Joe's Fresh Vegetable Tray, Trader Joe's White Bean & Basil Hummus, Honeycrisp Apples. more...
1683 kcal Activities & Exercise: Circuit Training - 30 minutes, Tennis - 30 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 15 hours. more...
on diet Ruhu's own diet  


If this were real life trumpets and music would be sounding as balloons and concerto shower you in celebration of these wonderful triumphs! I read your journal reflecting on how some young folks forgo college to go 'find' theirself instead of going to work immediately. I wonder if they get all this discovery done 'then' once and for all or if it's a process necessary all throughout life as our roles and nests change. Regardless - you're doing fabulous! I read an article a year ago that explained the difference between shy vs introverted - I too am the latter and share the same draining exhaustion after having to interact with groups. I'm content in large crowds as long as I am alone and not required to make conversation. In fact - I'm comfortable initiating conversations with strangers. Maybe I just need better friends? Something to think about. Great journal - you've inspired me to explore something :-) Have a great day! 
04 Apr 13 by member: FullaBella
Good job on the self education - need to take a cue from you and start learning about myself.  
04 Apr 13 by member: BuffyBear
Excellent entry. All the best to you. This is a journey one that will never end. Be happy and healthy as you travel the road ahead. Make each day the best you can. 
04 Apr 13 by member: deadcenter


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