Sandy701's Journal, 26 March 2013

It's been one of those weekends that I didn't get around to having the time to journal. I got my foods and exercise logged, but that's about it.

We had 2 choral concerts this weekend to attend (just shoot me now...). :) One of them was one that DH had a lot of participation in, so that made it more bearable. I don't want to offend anyone who is a part of a choral group, but I just can't muster up much enthusiasm for sitting in a chair for 2 hours watching a group of people stand still in front of me singing some choral works. This first group we saw did mostly Renaissance music. I can very much appreciate the harmonies and the work it must have taken the director to produce such a well-balanced sound from the group, but beyond that....

The second concert (that DH was involved in) at least had the big group, a smaller group, a small band, etc., so it was more "entertaining" to me. The theme was Holy Week and I think the presentation added to my preparation for this week.

These choral works mean a lot to DH, and have meant a lot for many years, so I go along and try to appreciate what I can.

Sunday was a beautiful, gorgeous, gorgeous day! 81 degrees for a high and I'm sure the Spring Breakers were ecstatic! At least they got one day - LOL! Unfortunately, that front came through and dropped our temps like a lead balloon. We've had blue skies ever since, but the temps are barely making it to 60 degrees, after nearly freezing every night, and the wind is cold and steady...not exactly the beach weather so many were hoping for.

My 3-year anniversary of becoming low-carb comes up on Thursday. I think I've journaled before how this whole journey got started. Basically, my DH decided to go back on Atkins to drop a few pounds in preparation for his annual (now semi-annual) fitness test. I said something like "I guess I could probably do that too," and off we went. Gosh.....my desire and commitment were overwhelming!!! LOL!

Before I got started, my weight had been creeping upward for many, many years. Occasionally, I'd do either Protein Power or Atkins and drop, maybe 10 pounds, but that was it. Basically, I was just ignoring my weight. Sure, I WANTED to be lighter, but as long as I could buy bigger clothes and have no documented medical issues, I just didn't think about my weight very much. I bypassed mirrors and stayed out of photographs. As long as I could still do things like mowing the lawn, carrying groceries, etc., I deluded myself into thinking I was just fine....although being smaller would be nice. I rarely weighed myself on a scale.....I didn't want to know. If I got on a scale, that would mean I'd have to face that big number, even if only for a moment....but then it would be stuck in my head for awhile and I didn't want to deal with that.

WANTING to be smaller....WISHING I were lighter.....that doesn't get it done! CHANGE requires ACTION. Sustained action. It requires, first, facing up to where I am. No hiding....no delusion.....no denial...no justifications....no excuses. "It is what it is."

This didn't happen perfectly when I began, but it's the gist of what was different....why this journey has turned into success and previous ones only had very short-lived success. (I use the word "success" for this journey, even though it's not a perfect journey and is still in progress....as I intend it to be for the rest of my life.)

This time....I faced exactly where I was. I faced what my future health would look like without weight loss. I faced specifically what the weight was actually doing to me. I faced what I really didn't like about being so overweight. No hiding...no delusion....no denial...no justifications....no excuses.

And, like most things, I truly believe that I have the power to change. Change is a choice. My least favorite phrase is "I didn't have a choice." Yes, you DO have a choice....or many choices. You may not like the alternative(s), but you always have a choice.

Diet Calendar Entries for 26 March 2013:
1053 kcal Fat: 68.96g | Prot: 68.01g | Carb: 34.60g.   Breakfast: eggs, Hormel turkey pepperoni, Hunt's petite diced tomatoes, Kraft shredded mozzarella cheese, Kraft shredded colby jack cheese, Hunt's no salt added tomato sauce, heavy cream, Kraft Shredded Parmesan cheese, Pieces & Stems Mushrooms, Philadelphia Original Cream Cheese (foil bricks). Lunch: chia seeds (bulk), Pieces & Stems Mushrooms, Breakfast Chicken Sausage, Natural Finely Shredded Colby & Monterey Jack Cheese, Diced Petite Tomatoes, Egg. Dinner: Salad Toppins, Romaine Hearts, Ranch Dressing, Armenian Cucumbers, Grape Tomatoes, chia seeds (bulk). Snacks/Other: Bacon Curls Microwave Pork Rinds. more...
1919 kcal Activities & Exercise: Walking (exercise) - 3.5/mph - 53 minutes, Resting - 15 hours and 7 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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WOW, 3 years at the low carb. YOU ARE AMAZING!!! I was very strong for a year and then I crashed. It's up and down all the time now. I just can't seem to get my head back into it. Thanks for the inspiring journal. Your wonderful. Keep up the fantastic work. :) 
26 Mar 13 by member: LauPug1
Yes, Laurie...it's been that long. Not perfectly successful every single day, but my WOE has defintely been low-carb. I believe in it....the science behind it....the rationale....so that makes it easier than following a "diet" with arbitrary rules and not really knowing why it should be that way. Glad to see you survived this latest storm! Will spring EVER get to most of the country???? 
26 Mar 13 by member: Sandy701
I am so looking forward to your anniversary...what a way to celebrate all your efforts other than to totally, openly & honestly face up to where you were & how you got to where you are now. I think you have done that in your journal today, specifically that it isn't a perfect journey, some days/weeks/months are easier than others. But ultimately, I believe in its core your success comes from your attitude & your willingness to do different/to be different & above & beyond that to not give up! Good Job & Happy Anniversary!! 
26 Mar 13 by member: gg-girl
Thanks GG. As time has gone along, I think I've come to embrace a lot of different/contrarian views. It's a bit scary going away from the mainstream. But I think you're right in that some of the success comes from going against "established" viewpoints....like low fat diets are the best for America. Here's to more "easier" times for all of us!!!! 
26 Mar 13 by member: Sandy701
Wow that takes a big change of mind to do that...And you did it..and like you said it is for life..Happy Anniversary and keep up the great job of taking care of you...:O) 
26 Mar 13 by member: BHA
Happy anniversary, Sandy!! What an excellent journal. I agree, while I may fall off the wagon from time to time, my lifestyle is definitely low carb. You have done an amazing job transforming your life and are an inspiration and great example for all of us! Thanks! 
27 Mar 13 by member: ctlss
Loved your journal. Happy anniversary when it comes.  
27 Mar 13 by member: sarahsmum
Thanks Bren. I'm so lucky to have you as a buddy over the mid- and late parts of this journey. I look forward every day to reading about all your adventures....food and non-food ones! Have a safe trip to your sister's....hope her surgery is successful with a short recuperation time. :) 
27 Mar 13 by member: Sandy701
Stef, you were my first buddy, as I recall, and I was worried that I wouldn't be able to live up to your success. I've learned so much from you....over your good times and the maybe-could-be-better ones too. YOU, my friend, are the inspiration and example for me. Have a wonderful day! 
27 Mar 13 by member: Sandy701
Thanks Issy. Anniversaries bring so many things to mind. If I journaled them all, I'm afraid I'd never get anything else done! Hope you're having a good week. 
27 Mar 13 by member: Sandy701
Sandy, you are truly an inspiration for many of us and this journal post was just what I needed to read. We do all have a choice about what we do, what we eat, how we live. I foolishly strayed from the Atkins WOE in 2012 and have slowly regained all I lost in 2011. I spent a great deal of time beating myself up over it, but I know the CHOICE is mine as to how I proceed from here. I can continue feeling depressed and stay right where I am, or I can CHOOSE to move forward, make changes for the better and begin my Atkins journey once again. One positive thing, it's not like I need to learn the program. I KNOW what I have to do! Thanks for your honesty and inspiration Sandy! And HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!! 
29 Mar 13 by member: MrsB1228
Thanks Carol. You've got the right attitude.....don't waste time beating yourself up that you could otherwise use to plan your future! Hang in there....you know what to do and I've every confidence you'll be right back in the saddle before you know it! Happy Easter. 
29 Mar 13 by member: Sandy701

     
 

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