LisaPhenon's Journal, 21 March 2013

I am so frustrated! I thought I was doing everything right. I've been at this since March 8, and I lost 7 pound right away. So, last week I stepped on the scale and I had gained a pound. I didn't really worry about that, so I continued to workout and eat right, and today I step on the scale and I've gained another pound. I had just gotten to the gym to workout, and when I saw that number... 230, I just shut down. I was ready to leave the gym and throw in the towel. I figured, what the hell am I busting my ass for if I'm gonna gain weight! So, I see the owner of the gym, who is always really helpful. He tells me what I'm doing wrong with my diet. He says I need to cut out the sugar, cut back on my smoothies, and eat more protein. He said that I should be taking in 40% carbs, 30% protein, and 30% fat. I happen to be on 4 medications which are probably making it harder to lose weight, so I have to take that into account and work even harder. I feel like I've been wasting time doing everything wrong. I'm working out 6 times a week and keeping my calories under 1700. So, I thought for sure I was doing it right. People make it seem so easy. They say, "As long as you're burning more calories than you're taking in, you'll lose weight, but there is so much more to it, especially for people like me. After a long chat with Doug (the gym owner), I felt a little more hopeful, but still kinda depressed. I just left the gym without working out. I had no desire. I felt defeated. I have to completely rework my diet. I know that I have to stick with it or I'll just keep gaining weight, but I just went from elated to depressed. I just don't know if I have the strength to do this. I am close to tears right now. So, I'm sitting here with 4 slices of turkey deli meat, 1/2 cup of cottage cheese, 1/4 cup of sunflower seeds, and v8 juice, and I'm second guessing myself. Maybe it's too much of this or not enough of that. I just don't know what to do anymore.

Diet Calendar Entries for 21 March 2013:
1617 kcal Fat: 65.88g | Prot: 102.38g | Carb: 159.64g.   Breakfast: coffee, cheerios, Organic Unsweetened Almond Milk, French Vanilla Creamer. Lunch: oscar mayer turkey/ham, v8 juice, cottage cheese, sunflower seeds. Dinner: sonic chicken wrap, sonic chicken strips, diet cranberry juice. Snacks/Other: watermelon. more...
3250 kcal Activities & Exercise: Walking (slow) - 2/mph - 2 hours, Standing - 1 hour, Sitting - 6 hours, Driving - 2 hours, Resting - 5 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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Keep up the work and learning and the results you want will follow in time. 
21 Mar 13 by member: jparlett
I've been where you are. My body is weird. I was restricting my calories to 1500 or even below sometimes and working out about 6 days a week. I noticed that I wasnt losing much weight and even gaining and I freaked out too. So, I find that when I workout a lot like that I need to increase my calorie intake. I know it seems weird but it really does work for me. The weight started coming off nicely. This week I've noticed my weight not dropping and I know it's because I'm eating too little. Never thought I would have a hard time eating more calories lol.  
21 Mar 13 by member: AquaSurf00
I feel your pain. It really CAN get frustrating and discouraging when you work soooo hard, but don't see the results you want. I know how that feels first hand. You put yourself through (what feels like) a rigorous routine. It feels like torture almost, and yet, you feel proud of yourself for pushing through that "torture"......until you see the scale. It can be really disheartening.... But guess what... You have been whipping your butt for 14 days. FOURTEEN DAYS!!! That is a HUGE accomplishment. For most people, starting out is the hardest part. Then once they've gotten started, they slow down after a week (or stop completely...just for a "little break". Ask me how I know this. LOL) and have to start all over again because they didn't push forward. But YOU DID! That's awesome! I know you're disappointed in your weight. (I'm currently feeling disappointed and mad at myself right now)....but don't give up! Don't let it make you sad. It might make you binge, and then you'll REALLY feel upset. Instead, let it piss you off. Let it piss you off so much that you can use that energy to push forward and workout. Use that energy to fight for what you want. Yes, if you need to modify your diet a little, then do it. Do what you feel might help. I, for one, need to cut back on sugar and carbs. Perhaps not completely, but just a bit. Ice cream is my weakness, so I really need to work on that. Plus, when I get upset, I start binge-eating....and that's a big no-no. But anyway, don't give up. Fight harder. Push yourself until you see those pounds start to drop again. Push yourself until you notice your clothes start to get loose. Try not to let that scale beat you up! (I know! Easier said than done, right?) You can do it! Find something that your body LOVES. I figured out that my body loves rotisserie chicken. I can eat fish and salad all day, but I don't seem to burn as much or lose as much weight like I do when I eat summa dat good ole chicken and veggies. In fact, I love to eat it lettuce wraps (with parsley/cilantro, mint, carrots, and some homemade sauce to go in it). So yeah, just figure out what your body absolutely loves and works best with. That might be the key. Good luck! We've all been there. I'm still continuing to go on these roller coaster rides with my weight, but I'm trying. So keep trying! 
21 Mar 13 by member: Emerald17
Bodies are bizarre, once after losing 10 pounds in a week, I then was perfect for 2 weeks and nothing happened. Try thinking long term, I know how incredibly frustrating it is - especially with the medications. But exercising 6 times a week and eating 1700 calories is amazing - a major accomplishment. Honestly if you keep doing that I can't believe you won't see more results soon. Hang in there!  
21 Mar 13 by member: Zaleya
Don't quit! Nobody said this was going to be easy and what you need to draw on right is pure determination to keep moving forward regardless of want the scale says. Don't use the scale as an excuse, because your doing the right things and it will show on the scale eventually. Use your clothes as a common-sense measuring tool to monitor your progress. I totally understand your frustration today like many others on FS, but I promise you if you turn this around as an opportunity to spur yourself on you will not regret it. You can do this!  
21 Mar 13 by member: Josie Ann
First, are you weighing on the scale scale, same time of day, same clothes, etc. If not, you will get a different reading each time and cannot accurately gauge your weight loss. You need one scale as your "official" scale and pick a time to weigh in. I prefer first thing in the morning, after going to the bathroom and before eating or drinking anything. All the food you eat and drink all day has weight and if you eat different foods each day they all have different amounts of sodium. So your weight is going to fluctuate all day long. Google "why the scale lies" for insight in to water weight fluctuations. You are still down 5 pounds, so that is a great thing. Look at the big picture and not just the day to day. You are doing great things for your health and you will have to do them forever in order to keep the weight off. Take it one day at a time and keep changing things up till you find what is working. Eating more protein and high fiber foods is good advice. You can do this. One day at a time. 
21 Mar 13 by member: Suzi161
It's a frustrating process for many of us and determination is what will get us through. Facing the scale and the disappointment when it doesn't go down is the worse feeling I've ever experienced. I never weigh myself more than once a week! Another suggestion is to use other ways to measure your progress. Exercising makes a huge difference in the shape of your body, even when you don't lose an ounce. I take body measurements once a month - waist, hips, thighs - and compare the reductions there. It's a journey and you're doing it to live a healthier, happier life - you're worth it! One step, one day at a time - you CAN do it! 
21 Mar 13 by member: Tmcaporale
You guys are awesome. I really needed those words of encouragement, I know I'll be okay. I won't give up. I really don't think that's an option. I think I'll use what I learned today and keep it going. I have to admit, I felt sorry for myself today, so I had a good cry followed by chicken strips from sonic. The first fried food I've had in three weeks. Tomorrow is a new day. I'll dust myself off and climb back on. Thanks again. 
21 Mar 13 by member: LisaPhenon
Nothing wrong with a good ole' pity party...as long as it only lasts for 1 day! 😊 Tomorrow is indeed a new day.  
21 Mar 13 by member: Josie Ann
That's true Josie. I really was feeling sorry for myself. I stuffed my face for dinner and then went to bed with the same problems that I had been battling before I changed my diet and started exercising. I'm awake now at 1:15am because of an acid reflux attack and I had a nightmare. Neither of these things have happened since I started working out and eating right, and my mood has been so much better, going to bed with happy, positive thoughts, and waking up refreshed and ready for the day. So, why did I let a 2 pound weight gain kick my butt? I'm up thinking about that. So many things could have been a factor. For one thing, I haven't been going to the bathroom as much which probably means I need more fiber. Also, and this may sound silly, but I might be on to something... I got long hair extensions on Monday (braids). They feel heavy on my head, so why wouldn't they make a difference on the scale? Bottom line is, I need to get over it, and keep fighting. I have read every message and everyone makes so much sense. These are things that I knew but when I saw that number on the scale, it's like I completely forgot everything. That number was all that mattered. So, I'm over it. I'm gonna get up in the morning and keep fighting. 
22 Mar 13 by member: LisaPhenon
I got on my scale this morning and was up 2 pounds. BUT I know it's not from bad habits because I know i've worked out and ate clean. Our bodies are just weird. I will give it a couple days before I weigh again. i'm glad you are in good spirits! 
22 Mar 13 by member: AquaSurf00
thank you. Have a great day and I'll do the same :) 
22 Mar 13 by member: LisaPhenon

     
 

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