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So, the nice thing about Tom, is that when I'm working out hard, he doesn't pain me as much. My breasts are less sore, my cramps are less (though not entirely gone). Unfortunately I haven't figured out how to rid myself of my Tom-induced emotional swings. On a downward one at the moment, and I know it'll pass, so trying to just be calm and mellow as opposed to potentially exposing anyone else to this.
My workout last night went well, still increasing my time on the elliptical, not yet increasing the level, though I guess that will have to happen soon. It'll be good for me, right? Right :)
The new rules are going pretty well so far, I even skipped my allowed Thursday morning chai because we have a company pot luck for lunch today and I know I'm likely to overeat there. I made fudge :)
Here's the diversion from the weight/fitness thing.
I have now been seriously chatting with this guy, this Brit for just over two weeks. man, it feels like longer than that. We've been talking every day. First emails (he actually called a couple times, but that's way expensive) and now via skype. In general, I'm enjoying myself. He's fun to talk to, I think we're both enjoying each other. Last night and this morning, though, quiet. So I am being quiet back. I really dislike this. I think mostly I dislike not knowing what he's thinking, or that there is a "we" that is solid enough that I know he's just busy and tired and we will pick up again soon. Do I feel like we could get there? Actually, yes. But it will still take some time. Do I think we could flame out and not get there at all? Yes for that too. All it takes is one alluring woman to be there in person, and I'm out. Maybe? It's so tough. I know there are so many reasons to not try to continue this. But as long I'm happy, then they don't seem to matter. My horoscope the other day told me, "If you don't expect the worst of someone, you may find that you get the best." This makes sense in how I typically handle these things, expecting the worst (especially when Tom is visiting..) so going to keep working on being positive. :)
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