FullaBella's Journal, 11 March 2013

I spent much of today thinking about the terrible two's and how my buddies shared I'm not the only one they affected. Maybe not four times like me - but there seemed to be a 'yeah, me too!' tone of surprise.

Interesting. Because .... well, shoot... what's the answer then? Does everything have to have a shelf life? Love, jobs, cars, health, TV shows and fashion?

We do always reading stories of couples who've been in love since childhood sweethearts. Some people are healthy their entire life. I think it finally ended but I grew up catching 'All My Children' whenever I played hookie, uh, I mean, stayed home from school sick. The little black dress is a timeless fashion classic.

So, food and weight. How do we make it, too, a lasting classic? Will I be able to live forever 'everything in moderation' and eat mindfully? Will this be the lasting fix, the superglue to hold it together for the next, ah heck, thirty years at least?

I think the thing that gives me the most hope is the skills I'm learning. In the past, my weight loss was because I'd become really good at starving but that only lasted so long. I focused too much on accepting the reward for my deprivation via the 'anything goes weekend' once a month instead of 'this is how you do it right' the other 28+ days of the month. I confused 'thin people eat all they want' with 'thin people eat all *I* want' because after feeling so deprived, I wanted a lot. I allowed myself to gorge on 'some foods' (salads, vegetables) to the point I never really knew when I was actually hungry. Feast or famine. No moderation.

So what will the toddlers bring? First one cookie then two then six? Ice cream instead of fruit? Soda instead of water? Junk and processed food instead of the ring of perishables? Eating for reason's other than hunger?

So day by day, bite by bite, I'll just continue to work on making myself toddler proof. They say there's a thin woman inside me trying to get out. I hope she's past the terrible two's.

Diet Calendar Entries for 11 March 2013:
1543 kcal Fat: 109.39g | Prot: 77.80g | Carb: 60.85g.   Breakfast: Onion, Spinach, Turkey, Sauerkraut Libby, Butter Land O Lakes, Sartori . Lunch: Hamburger Meat, Pickles, 100 cal almonds, Babybel. Dinner: Egg, Laughing Cow, Crispy Sauerkraut, Celery, Onion, Land O Lakes Whipped Butter, Ham. Snacks/Other: Dark Chocolate Almond Spread, Smart Balance Peanut Butter. more...
2058 kcal Activities & Exercise: Sleeping - 24 hours. more...


I think I will have to send Sarah to visit you. Do you know, the first thing she asked after her swim lesson was " are we going to Aldi S ?" When I said " no, not this week". She said " its ok gran, I wont let you look at the biscuits and cakes." So do you want to borrow her for a week? Xxxx 
12 Mar 13 by member: sazy
Would prob need her more like 12 mos ... I was remembering sending MH for chocolate and when he tried to say no I growled 'just...get...chocolate ' and literally 'drank' a 2lb bag of M&M's ....I'd prob scare Sarah.... 
12 Mar 13 by member: FullaBella
Oh that's a good differentiation-thin people eat all "I" want!  
12 Mar 13 by member: CollyMP
Maybe it s like a successful happy marriage. It s work everyday. Never taking it for granted and being on auto pilot cause when that happens you wake up next to someone you stopped loving and when I go on autopilot with my health I wake up and look in the mirror and don t recognize myself...so here s a idea...we have bought into a giant American myth that everything is supposed to be easy magic. You cannot eat at buffets everyday and be thin. Thin people look for ways to get exercise then look out for themselves at meals...no autopilot. That's my plan. 
12 Mar 13 by member: sharonfriz
Sharon that is SOOO true! We have fallen into the myth that everything is supposed to be effortless, that what we want to happen will simply occur with no further input or effort of our own. I know of no other area of my life where this has EVER been applicable! Everything I have wanted badly has required effort, input, and sacrifice, by me, to have what I wanted. Weight loss and maintenance is no different, nor should it be.  
12 Mar 13 by member: CollyMP
Well, if indeed the two year mark is the beginning of toddlerhood... I think I'm there! I made my second debut on fatsecret back on April 12, 2012 but I had already been on Weight Watchers since March of 2011. So, ya. Two years. I do believe I have broken my own personal record for how long I've stuck to a weight loss effort. The previous record was the first round I had on fatsecret, starting on January 9, 2008 and falling off the grid on July 31, 2009 - so that made it to almost 19 months that time. I think part of the equation has been learning to deal with what life throws at us. The longer we stay "on program", the more things we will encounter, the more challenges we will face. For me, it seems to be about not throwing in the towel when things don't go the way we want - our weight loss stalls or we gain a few pounds back. That has always been my kryptonite in the past - being unable to accept lack of progress as part of the journey. If I wasn't doing great and losing at a steady pace, I'd lose faith and let that serve as an excuse to give up. This past year, I've only had a net loss of about 15 lbs where I had lost about 40 lbs in the year before that. Before, I would have considered that failure, all the plateaus and gaining and losing the same 5 lbs over and over - I would have jumped ship at the first sign of trouble. What's keeping me on board this time? Well, for sure keeping my journal on fatsecret is a key factor for me. I think that has given me the strength and support to push through the tough times. Anyway, I think you are doing a great job of "toddler proofing" your life. And fatsecret is that doorknob safety cover thingy that keeps the toddlers from opening doors and escaping!  
12 Mar 13 by member: evelyn64
Good journal and comments! Thanks! 
13 Mar 13 by member: Neptunebch


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