crabby Kat's Journal, 27 February 2013

I'm exploring a new hunger, a new reason that emotional eating is trying to grab a hold in my life again.

I've dealt fairly well with the stresses brought on by my the fact that my partner's job situation being in the midst of going kaplooey. I've dealt fairly well with my pain and trouble sleeping (for the most part). I've dealt fairly well with my partner having melt-downs (okay, there were my See's chocolate over-indulgence, but my weight's pretty stable).

Today I found myself hungry after a really good lunch and my favorite granola bar, and have eaten a few too many of my Chimes Ginger Chews which I had decided I could have as a "free food" now and then because it's full of flavor & only 16 calories each. Today I found myself chewing them instead of savoring the flavor as they melted on my tongue.

I was remembering with pleasure my Zumba class, talking to Gina (instructor) after class to see if she knows a good instructor on Maui (yes), and her advice to use the foam roller right after class when I mentioned my hip TFL & IT band issues. I assured her I was heading straight for physical therapy & I'd take care of it there. I did, spending 15 minutes before my appointment using their foam roller & doing stretches.

So, I'm sitting here, thinking about how great Gina is at both her job and her dancing, what great shape she's in, & does she get her great skin from healthy living or does she get regular facials since she's one of the Faces of Zumba? She's in better shape that a lot of women two decades younger than her, and she has 4 kids.

I realized I was jealous and depressed because I could never be that good; that my body will never let me move with such ease, grace, and fire. When I hit the "what's the point of trying" point, I said to myself "WHOA GIRL!"

I'm proud of what I've accomplished, love doing Zumba as well as I do, love dancing even if I'm not great at it or ever will be. My body has been through a lot, and I'm doing great accomplishing all I do. It will do my body no good if I overload it with sugary treats. It would much prefer one of those delicious organic Fuji apples in the kitchen.

Tonight I'm making veggie pizza on a whole wheat crust with a salad for dinner. I'm battling the sleep-depivation thing, so it's an easy dinner that's relatively healthy. Last night's ground turkey burger patty, swiss chard, and Peruvian beans were delicious and healthy.

I do not like the green-eyed monster! Ptooey, I spit in its eye, off you go, ridiculous jealousy! I'll take Zumba from Katie on Maui (if I can find her) and hold my head high, smile at my classmates, and do the very best I can.

Diet Calendar Entries for 27 February 2013:
2184 kcal Fat: 49.66g | Prot: 98.77g | Carb: 380.37g.   Breakfast: MEDAGLIA D'ORO INST COF, Fiber One Original, Water, Skim Milk, Nonfat Blueberry Greek Yogurt. Lunch: Kind Fruit & Nut Delight Bar, Water, Ground Turkey Breast, Bananas, gluten free masa harina golden corn flour, Cajun Seasoning (No MSG). Dinner: 100% Whole Wheat Thin Crust, Pizza Sauce, Reduced Fat 4 Cheese Italian Shredded Cheese (Sargento), Artichoke Hearts, Sliced Olives, Mushrooms, Artichoke Hearts, Mushrooms, Organic Romaine Heart Leaves, Salad Dressing. Snacks/Other: Chewy Bars - Oats & Chocolate, Organic Hot Chili Pops, Water, Fuji Apples, Dark Chocolate Mint Creams, Low Fat Ice Cream Bars - White Mint Truffle, Caribbean Fruit Floes, chimes. more...
2219 kcal Activities & Exercise: Housework - 1 hour, Desk Work - 1 hour, Sitting - 4 hours, Shopping - 10 minutes, Driving - 30 minutes, Stretching (yoga) - 15 minutes, Zumba with Gina! - 1 hour, Resting - 8 hours and 5 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
on diet crabby Kat's own diet  


Good work Kitkat! Good on you for identifying the root of the emotion and for putting a halt to the negative commentary. You are Fabulous! Totally rocking Zumba gal and a great woman and one heck of a chef!  
27 Feb 13 by member: FullaBella
I agree! Congrats on recognizing where the urge to eat came from and for dealing with it.  
27 Feb 13 by member: sarahsmum
OMG Kat - you are fantastic! Of course you are doing great at Zumba - think where you were one year ago! You are awesome! 
27 Feb 13 by member: HCB
The point of Zumba (in my opinion), is to have FUN! Get your body moving & laugh & enjoy it. I call it my 'making me happy' hour. We got ladies that always stand at the front, in their complete zumba gear & they get more or less all the steps right. But then I look at their faces.....soooo serious! Really? Its not a competition. You are the best you can be!!!! Don't let stress lead you astray!  
28 Feb 13 by member: schmetterling34
I hear you and it sounds like you have worked it through beautifully! A lot going on but you are focused to beat whatever negative comes along. I'm proud of you! 
28 Feb 13 by member: Neptunebch


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