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I'm exploring a new hunger, a new reason that emotional eating is trying to grab a hold in my life again.
I've dealt fairly well with the stresses brought on by my the fact that my partner's job situation being in the midst of going kaplooey. I've dealt fairly well with my pain and trouble sleeping (for the most part). I've dealt fairly well with my partner having melt-downs (okay, there were my See's chocolate over-indulgence, but my weight's pretty stable).
Today I found myself hungry after a really good lunch and my favorite granola bar, and have eaten a few too many of my Chimes Ginger Chews which I had decided I could have as a "free food" now and then because it's full of flavor & only 16 calories each. Today I found myself chewing them instead of savoring the flavor as they melted on my tongue.
I was remembering with pleasure my Zumba class, talking to Gina (instructor) after class to see if she knows a good instructor on Maui (yes), and her advice to use the foam roller right after class when I mentioned my hip TFL & IT band issues. I assured her I was heading straight for physical therapy & I'd take care of it there. I did, spending 15 minutes before my appointment using their foam roller & doing stretches.
So, I'm sitting here, thinking about how great Gina is at both her job and her dancing, what great shape she's in, & does she get her great skin from healthy living or does she get regular facials since she's one of the Faces of Zumba? She's in better shape that a lot of women two decades younger than her, and she has 4 kids.
I realized I was jealous and depressed because I could never be that good; that my body will never let me move with such ease, grace, and fire. When I hit the "what's the point of trying" point, I said to myself "WHOA GIRL!"
I'm proud of what I've accomplished, love doing Zumba as well as I do, love dancing even if I'm not great at it or ever will be. My body has been through a lot, and I'm doing great accomplishing all I do. It will do my body no good if I overload it with sugary treats. It would much prefer one of those delicious organic Fuji apples in the kitchen.
Tonight I'm making veggie pizza on a whole wheat crust with a salad for dinner. I'm battling the sleep-depivation thing, so it's an easy dinner that's relatively healthy. Last night's ground turkey burger patty, swiss chard, and Peruvian beans were delicious and healthy.
I do not like the green-eyed monster! Ptooey, I spit in its eye, off you go, ridiculous jealousy! I'll take Zumba from Katie on Maui (if I can find her) and hold my head high, smile at my classmates, and do the very best I can.
:oD
Diet Calendar Entries for 27 February 2013:
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2184 kcal
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Fat: 49.66g | Prot: 98.77g | Carb: 380.37g.
Breakfast: Nonfat Blueberry Greek Yogurt, Skim Milk, Water, Fiber One Original, MEDAGLIA D'ORO INST COF. Lunch: Cajun Seasoning (No MSG), gluten free masa harina golden corn flour, Bananas, Ground Turkey Breast, Water, Kind Fruit & Nut Delight Bar. Dinner: Salad Dressing, Organic Romaine Heart Leaves, Mushrooms, Artichoke Hearts, Mushrooms, Sliced Olives, Artichoke Hearts, Reduced Fat 4 Cheese Italian Shredded Cheese (Sargento), Pizza Sauce, 100% Whole Wheat Thin Crust. Snacks/Other: chimes, Caribbean Fruit Floes, Low Fat Ice Cream Bars - White Mint Truffle, Dark Chocolate Mint Creams, Fuji Apples, Water, Organic Hot Chili Pops, Chewy Bars - Oats & Chocolate. more...
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2219 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Housework - 1 hour, Desk Work - 1 hour, Sitting - 4 hours, Shopping - 10 minutes, Driving - 30 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 8 hours and 5 minutes, Zumba with Gina! - 1 hour, Stretching (yoga) - 15 minutes. more...
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